It's been a long time. But I need to journal. I've been a lot more depressed than I usually am. And I can't take it. I almost self harmed Last night because I couldn't. In my family/friend group chat, I feel like I'm not allowed to be myself. I love them all. But I love one more then the rest. And they make fun of me. They say "les be honest" or something like that. They don't really understand how much that hurts. I know I'm Bisexual. And not lesbian. But now I starting to feel like I am. And lesbians aren't a bad thing. But I feel like I'm kinda being pushed and forced to be a lesbian
