My mind says that it's time to go
I've refused before
But now I believe it's true
Surrounded by a devoted family
Who'd do anything to help me
I find myself growing apart from them
From the outside you'd think not
What goes on behind closed doors says different
That difference is tearing at my heart
I know leaving them would be a devastating act
Yet I can't convince myself to accept this fact
I'm ashamed and afraid
Of what's become of my present
What's to come of my future
I wish that I could change the past
To try to convince myself to take care
Yet I can't
There's no turning back
These scars are forever etched into my body
I like to think that they're battle wounds
But I'm not putting up much of a fight
Instead the sight of them makes me sick
Spilling out blood and regret
Alive for another day
A bit surprised that I made it
I'm not sure when I'll break
But for today, at least I'm around
A small piece of my mind quietly celebrates
