(Previously entitled as "The Prince is My Ex")
"If only we're still together right now. I would have pinned you agaisnt this elevator and fuck you senseless until you scream my name, letting them all know that your mine", he whispered through my ear...
Im dressed in a pink dress that ended on my knees, my hair curled up and wearing the black wedge sandals that my mother gave to me as a gift, and I'm looking quite presentable for tonight's celebration.
"Blow the candle already!", my sister shouted and I gave her a nod before blowing the candle, celebrating my 17th birthday.
No other desire but his presence, wishing he was here.
They all cheered for me, clapping there hands and began to feast on all the food that is prepared on the table.
A smile crept on my face in happiness but never reached my eyes, I am happy and thankful that all the people i love are here to celebrate my birthday, its blissful. But it would be such a memorable birthday if only his here.
My smile slowly turned into woe, a deep sigh came out and i went to the living room, standing by the door, feeling the cold breeze across my skin.
Greeted by every familiar and unfamiliar visitor that came, wishing me a happy birthday.
But im waiting for someone, hoping that maybe sooner or later he might come and surprise me. Honestly, I've been waiting since this morning, hoping that maybe there will be a guy that would be knocking on the door, looking for me and say that his Kylle.
I keep on checking my phone for any messages from him, but there was none. Its been a week now since his last text saying he loves me, till then no matter how many times i texted him. He wont reply although he saw it, but didnt bother to respond.
Even today that its my birthday, I didnt receive any greetings from him. But I kept waiting, just sitting by the stairs thats by the door and saying my thanks to the visitors for coming, and went there way home.
My mother and father are worried that they keep on asking me if I was ok but I just lied to them, saying I'm fine and that im just waiting for someone. They just give me a comforting smile.
Until midnight came, where the house is in pure silence now and no more joyous cheers and converse can be heard in the house, just my family. And my birthday is finally over.
And my heart is broken into pieces that it hurts so bad.
I sighed in grief, feeling my eyes starting to water until i broke into a woeful sob. Hugging my knees, resting my foreheard to it, and wept. My tears falling to my dress, making it soak.
I cant help but cry out this tormenting pain I feel deep inside my fractured heart.
He made me wait for nothing. He broke everything we ever dreamed of. All our hopes and promises, shattered.
I guess he never truly loved me. He must have found someone better there, someone who can give him everything he need and want. Someone he can reach, touch, kiss, everything he desired that i can never able to give and please him because of our distance.
He must ran out of patience that he stopped hoping and loving me.
I regret everything now, wishing that i shouldn't have answered his call and replied to his text, all of this would have not happened.
I felt a soothing rub on my back, I lifted my face to see my mom, looking at me with sadness and care. I hugged her and cried on her shoulder. She shushed me, rubbing my head trying to calm me down.
"The person you waited never came, am I right?", she said with a soft tone.
I sniffed and nodded, resting my chin on her shoulder. "He promised that he would come mom, he promised that he would never let go of me, but he broke it. He made me wait for nothing and it pains me so much that its killing me, its so unfair that he could just hurt me this much while he barely even care", i said to her with my voice cracking and hoarse.
"Sshhh, im sorry sweetheart. Sometimes life is unfair and there are situations that are out of our control, and there are things that just aren't meant to be"
I slowly leaned back, breaking from our embrace to face her. Her eyes full of love and care. I wish his here and look at me like that.
I wiped my tears with my hands. "So does that mean I should stop hoping? I should stop waiting for him because we're not meant to be?", i said with a sniff.
She took my hand and held it to hers, rubbing circles unto the back of my hand, "No baby, keep your hope and patience. All you have to do is move forward. Dont let yourself stuck in torment forever, it wont change anything, learn to move on and seek what the future brings for you. Fate will help lead you on your way towards your life's destiny. So keep your hopes up along with patience and soon you'll see the reason why your in this situation", giving me a consoling smile.
I nodded and let out a long deep sigh. She reached for my face and placed it on my cheek, gently carressing it.
"Soon it will all be worth it, theres always a reason behind every life privation"
And yes, I took my mother's advise that night. I decided to move forward, it was difficult. It takes time for my heart to heal. Time heals pain.
At first i was still waiting for his text, still hoping, still sending him messages wondering if he would reply, but he never did.
Until I realised that its time for me to stop, stop pushing myself to him, its only causing me pain.
I did everything just to avoid texting him, i erased his contact, all of our messages and i changed my number. But I never erased our bucket list thats on my notes. There's still apart of me that still has a little bit of hope, thats not such a bad thing right?
I always keep myself busy to put my mind off from thinking and remembering him. The more distracted I am, the easier and sooner I got used to live without him texting me everyday.
I learned to move forward but never learned to forget about him. Especially when i read or hear his name being called or mentioned by anyone or on TV, my mind would think of no one else but him.
Its formidable, its like im trying to forget my own name.
Im even teaching my heart to stop loving him, but who am I kidding. The heart cannot be taught, his name is already carved in. So i stopped listening to it, just to keep myself from pain and heartache.
So i moved on, letting myself leaded by fate. Hoping that this will all gonna be worth it at the end.
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