The Red String Between Us (On Hold for Rewriting)

12 Bucket List

Dedicated to LaineyFowler

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Lina

After 9 months of waiting and constant declined plans of meeting, we finally decided to make our own bucket list, consist of 12 things we wanna do together. Which we made on his birthday that time, January 24.

□ 1. Ride on a ferris wheel together while cuddling inside
□ 2. Go on a jog together
□ 3. Be a regular at Mc'donalds and eat burger and fries (serve as our first date)
□ 4. Braid Lina's hair and give her a manicure
□ 5. Wear the same outfit
□ 6. Take a picture wherever we go and make a scrapbook
□ 7. Dance and kiss in the rain
□ 8. Cuddle by the fire
□ 9. Watch the sunset together
□ 10. Go to London and tour Lina
□ 11. Court Lina again (in person)
□ 12. Get married and have kids

All of that were are both our dreams and promises that soon will be fulfilled on the month of March. On my birthday. And we get to celebrate our first anniversarry together on April 12.

We were so excited to do all those things that time that we can hardly go to sleep after.

And I cant wait to be with him atlast.

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But as days pass by, the nearer my birthday came. The slowly we became distant. Ever since we made all those bucket list of ours, he slowly changed.

He has little time for me, he could hardly reply immediately. I would wait minutes, even hours before he replies.

Sometimes forget to say good night and good morning when before he would never forget it. He always says it first even. And the way he text "I love you" has changed, it turned to a short and unsincere "love u", which makes me doubt him if its still true, cause it feels like its not anymore, there's something lacking.

Whenever we text, he always say's his busy with his studies and his doing something with his family and friends. But my gutt tells me his lying, his hiding something enigmatic from me.

We often argue and he would say such mean and awful things to me that it breaks me apart and burst into tears. But he barely even care, when before he would panick and say how sorry he is and even make me laugh to make me feel better.

But now he would just ignore my text until i apologize to him when its not even my fault.

I always was his first priority before anything else. He would stay up all night texting me even when he has class in the morning, he didnt mind.

He would always say he miss me when we just texted awhile ago, he would say that an hour without texting me feels like forever to him and he cant stand it. For him, im like the air he breaths.

But now it all changed. It feels like i dont know him anymore. The sweet, loving, humorous, flirty and joyous Kylle that i know became a heartless and cold stranger for me.

And there's nothing I could do to bring everything back the way it was before, to bring my boyfriend back.

All I could do is cry but I never gave up, it motivated me to be stronger for him, and hold on like he said before, even when I know I'll end up broken.

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March 5

"Happy Birthday to you!", I smiled brightly to my family and friends as they sang me a birthday song. Seeing each of them wearing a warm smile, happy for me. I wish I was as happy as they are for me.