The Loving Boyfriend

Fifty Seven

Dayton's
Things have been ok. Ella is so excited about the wedding. We aren't getting married until the spring but she's getting stuff all figured out and I'm pretty sure it's almost done. All I want is for her to have her perfect wedding and if she says I do by the end of it then that's all I care about. One thing however is along the way, I don't know when, but Ella had been putting herself down. She's been telling me how ugly she is and how fat she is, which she is none of that. I have told her many times she needs to stop self doubting herself but she doesn't listen.
"Oh my god all these models are so pretty wearing these wedding dresses. Im going to look so ugly in these dresses"Ella said
"stop no you aren't"I said
"yes I'm ugly and fat"she said
"no you are not. You are beautiful and perfect"I kissed her temple
"whatever you have to say that"she said
"no I don't. I say it because it's one hundred percent true"I said
"just look at me. fat"she pulled skin
"that's skin love"I said
"no it's not. I'll just go on a diet"she said
"no you won't"I said
"I'm fat Dayton"she said
"stop calling yourself that. I don't want to hear it anymore coming from your mouth"I scolded
"I'm just saying"she pouted
"and your wrong"I said
"whatever"she said
"come on we got to go to class"I grabbed her hand
"ugh I'm so done"she said
"we just started"I laughed
"and I want to be done"she sighed
"well sorry babe but we got a few more years left"I kissed her cheek
"stupid"she said
We went to our classes and was done before 12 so we chilled at home till soccer.
"I think I want to stop playing soccer"Ella said
"really?"I questioned
"yeah I'm just not having fun anymore"she sat next to me
"the team or the sport"I asked
"the sport. I love the team but not the sport"she said
"mm have to you talked to coach"I asked
"no he'll get upset"she said
"yeah but maybe he will help you"i said
"by guilt tripping me"she laughed
"true"I laughed
"I just think I want to start my career and I don't think soccer is part of that"I said
"fair enough but your just starting your future and last time I checked you wanted to be a pro soccer player"I smirked
"shut up"she punched my arm
"I'm just teasing. You do what you want to do and I'll support you not matter what"I said
"yeah cause your going to be my hubby"she put herself on my lap
"yes I am"I kissed her
"I'm so excited"she smiled
"to marry me or the wedding"I laughed
"both"she said
"it'll be perfect"I kissed her nose
"yeah if I could lose weight and look pretty"she pouted
"stop it. You are perfect"I hugged her
"no im not. I'm fat and wrinkly. It's so bad"she said
"stop saying those things. I don't know what's gotten into you but you need to stop self destroying yourself. You are beautiful and perfect"I said
"no im not.you just have to say that cause your my fiancé"she said
"no I don't but I will because it's the truth"I said
"no look at me Dayt. Just so ugly"she said
"say your ugly one more time and I'll put you over my knee"I warned
"I'm so fucking ugly!!!!"she yelled at me and I pulled her over my knee
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"oweee"she squirmed and I say her on my lap
"I don't like you putting yourself down this much, so if I hear anymore negativity towards yourself it will get added up at the end of the week"I said
"what that's not fair"she pouted
"until you show me that you can say positive stuff about yourself this is going to happen. If this doesn't work I have another idea"I said
"Dayt"she whined
"I'm serious Ella. This has been going on for a well or so and I have been patient with you but it stops now. You are beautiful and amazing and I want you to know that."I held her in my arms
"but I'm not perfect"she said
"none of us are and I'm not telling you that you have to be perfect. In my eyes you are perfect"I said
"I'll try"she said
"that's all I ask for"I said
"but you gotta be nice to me"she said
"I'm always nice baby"I smiled
"not when your spanking me"she crossed her arms
"yes I'm nice enough to punish you when you do bad things"I said
"whatever"she snuggled in my arms
"I love you"I kissed the top of her head
"I love you to"she said
We cuddled for awhile until we had to go to soccer. I really hope this will motivate her to be proud of who she is and not care about what others think. The weeks been going and it seems like she wasn't even listening to my lecture. She's been worse this week. Just tearing herself down every minute she can. It's really sad actually. There only so much I can do. Yeah I can spank her but it won't get her mentally to change. Don't worry I have come up with another idea.
"Ella"I yelled as I walked in the apartment but i didn't get a response
"Ella I'm home"I said again and there was nothing
"Ella"I check the kitchen
"maybe here"I checked the office
"probably our room"I walked in and didn't see her but then I walked around the the corner and saw Ella with a razor against her skin
"Daniella"I rushed to her and took the razor
"oh my god!"she cried
"what the hell are you doing"I yelled
"I-I'm sorry"she cried
"where the hell did you get this"I continued shouting
"I-I bought them"she cried more
"baby why would you do that"I calmed down and held her close to my chest
"i-I'm wor-worthless an-and u-ugly"she stuttered
"what no you are not baby! Your are absolutely amazing and wonderful. Who told you that"I carried her to the bed
"girls"she sighed
"Ella babe ignore those girls. They are acting like high school bitches. Baby I really mean it when I say you are amazing,wonderful, gorgeous,beautiful,sexy and so much more. I will keep telling you over and over until it gets through your head. I love every part of you and nothing is going to stop that"I sincerely said to her
"really"she smiled
"yes Ella I love you and I don't care what your flaws are. We all have them they make us who we are, so stop putting yourself down. You are freaking perfect to me"I kissed her forehead
"I'm sorry"she mumbled
"you scared me babe"I held her close to me for awhile.
"am I in trouble"she looked at me
"oh so much"I said but continued to hold her
"I'm sorry. I was stupid. I'm about to get married to the best guy on the planet and I was selfish to think of harming myself. I'm so so sorry Dayton. I love you more then words can say and I never meant to hurt you or scare you like that. I'm so stupid"she cried
"your not stupid honey. You just made a mistake. I love you so much which is why I need to punish you for doing what you did. Don't think for one sec that I'm spanking you because I'm angry at you. I'm doing it because I love you to much to see you make the same mistake. After this we will snuggle for the rest of the night and I'll show you how beautiful you are. Okay"I kissed her nose
"ok"she nodded
"let's get this over with"I said and she bent over my knee and I pulled her panties since she was only in a bra and panties.
"hold my hand"she said and I held her hand
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"mmm owe"she was crying already probably because she was emotionally
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"owe I'm sorry"she credited and held tight to my hand
"your doing good baby"I said rubbing her red bottom
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"owe owe"she sobbed
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"I-I so-sorryyy"she balled
"why are you being spanked Ella"I paused and rubbed her sore bright red bottom
"ca-cause I-I pu-put my-myself down an-and al-almost cu-cut my-myself"she hiccuped
"ok 20 more really hard ones ok"I sand and she nodded
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"shhh all done"I lifted her up and rocked her
"I-i so-sorry"she cried and cried in my chest
"shhh all forgiven baby"I held her close to me and calmed her down
"shhhh you're ok honey"I rubbed her back and played with her hair.
"my bottom hurts"her eyes got all teary
"I know baby. You'll be ok"I said
"ok"she sighed and snuggled close to me
"your punishment is almost over"I said
"no no more please Dayt"she pleaded
"I'm not going to spank you"I stood her up
"Dayton please"she begged
"come here"I grabbed her hand and lead her to our closet
"what are we doing in here"I asked
"your going in timeout kinda. You are going stand in front of this mirror for 15 minutes and you are going to write on the mirror all the good things about yourself including your body."I handed her an erasable marker
"um ok"she said
"I'll be back and I want this mirror full of stuff ok."I said
"ok I'll try"she said
"Thats all I ask"I kissed her cheek and went to the kitchen.
I set a timer for 15 minutes. I made some food and grabbed some movies before heading back to our room.
"good job Ella"I walked in to see the mirror 99% full of writing
"thanks"she smiled
"now whenever you feel down about yourself you come in here and read all of this."I said
"ok I can do that"she said
"I'm proud of you baby"I hugged her and kissed her head
"thanks Dayt"she smiled up at me
"anything for my little fiancé"I pecked her lips
"now can you put lotion on my butt"she asked
"of course babe"I picked her up and took her to the bed
"stay here"I said and walked to the bathroom to grab the lotion bottle
"on your tummy"I said and she did
"thank you"she smiled
"I love you and your naughty bottom"I patted
"mm"she pouted
"oh stop it"I laughed
"make me"she smirked
"oh baby you don't wanna start that"I said
"maybe I do"she said
"stop it little girl"I said
"but you promised you would make me feel beautiful"she put on her innocent act
"ok ok you got me"I laughed and pinned her under me
"what are you going to do now"she giggled
"oh many things little one"I smirked
Not going into detailed but we had tons of fun with each other and it made me even more excited for our honeymoon. I love my naughty little girl.