Out Of Control

prologue

I could feel my heart beating and the unsteady feeling of anacondas slithering in my stomach.My palms were always sweaty and the feeling of lightheadedness occurred each time. These all seemed to be symptoms of a severe sickness. Some kind of foreign virus. I was so convinced at the time. Maybe I was having an allergic reaction to him because it only happened when he was close to me. Maybe his lotion or cologne? My heart would be ready to rupture and the feeling in my stomach being almost crippling. I was allergic to him.I had to be.

I wasn't. No, it was much worse than a possible death. It was worse than that time I fell and hit my head, worst than almost dying on several different occasions. It was worse than different foster homes and foster parents. It was worse than- I think you get the point. I hated that feeling of being vulnerable, helpless,confused, not being inbcontrol and lost.

I wasn't dying, but I was falling for my best friend, Grayson no matter how much I tried to deny it. The only way to stop it was to distance myself.Ha, little did I know it wouldn't be as easy as that. No, it was decided that bad things must be granted to me.

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Welcome to the story of River. As you have read, she is supposed to be a Tom boy/ lesbian.
Song- Human by Rag'n' bones man.

Here's a pickup line for how you should feel now that you have found this book.

Do you have a Band-Aid? Because I just scraped my knee falling for you.

Thank you, I will be here all day.

Comment your first thoughts and be sure to hit the vote button(As you should).

Anyways, baby bye bye bye.