I've struggled along the way
fortunately, I managed to stay.
though it crossed my mind,
to leave it all behind
The thought of losing you made me change my mind.
As I close my eyes late at night,
I convinced myself to fight.
I shed a tear,
stay out of light—
Just to make the pain disappear with all my might
But how long would I be able to keep myself sane?
Loving you made me feel this close—
from being insane.
because every time I go away,
it almost feels like it's okay
I cannot deny the pain inside,
I cannot hold on much longer—
when will it subside?
how long can I abide?
When will our two worlds collide?
I questioned you at times you speak,
when curiosity is at its peak.
I ask you too many—too deep
because the risks of loving were
oh so steep
It is hard to fake a smile when
you are rendered helpless
I just wish that imitating sadness
have been just as easy as—
feigning happiness
