It is frustrating,the way I hate crying. I cry more than I care to admit. Keeping my temper andcontrolling my frustration has gotten easier, but I always feel like I'm aticking time bomb just waiting to go off. To sprout that glorious waterfall of saltytears, to release all that pent up rage and sadness that plagues me. I hate it.I hate that I always have to be right. I hate that I have no filter. I hate theway that I let you influence my feelings. I hate you. I love you. You build meup and then take pleasure in tearing me down brick by brick. This wasn'tsupposed to be about you, but it is. Just so you know, my happiness is notbased on you, although you do make me smile. You make me laugh. You make mecry. I love it when you ignore me. I love love love love love love you.
