#رحمه
بعد اللي حصل في الكافيه روحت البيت و حبست نفسي في اوضتي و تجاهلت فرحه و نايل اللي فضلوا يكلموني و قفلت موبايلي و فضلت قاعده عالسرير مش بعمل اي حاجه لحد ما نمت .. ايه اللي بيحصل ده؟؟
انا ليه بيحصل فيا كدة؟!!
صحيت الصبح و افتكرت كل حاجه حصلت و قررت اني مش هخرج من هنا الا لما اخلص المذكرات .. حتى لو منمتش
طلعت المذكرات و بدأت اقرا فيها تاني
"راقبت كل تحركاته و لكن بلا فائدة، فكل ما يذهب اليه هو العمل ثم يعود للمنزل مرة اخرى .. احيانا يذهب الي الحانات او ما شابه .. لكن لا مكان يثير شكي .. ربما علي ان ادخل بيته و اعرف ما به؟ ربما السر هناك ..!"
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#دينا
بكلم ليام في الموب و حكيتله كل حاجه حصلت معايا انا و كولتن بعد ما مشي
Me: i know what you gonna say, im crazy. But i just can't pretend anymore. I love him.
Liam: you're gonna get your heart broken
Me: it's my heart, liam. MY heart
Liam: what does that mean? You're not gonna be davestated when he leaves you or cheats on you again?
You think you're above that?
You know the one thing i always thought you have was a good judgement but right now? This? i dont understand why you're being so stupid
Me: stupid? Thank you
*قفلت السكه في وشه*
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#رنا
صحيت و فضلت نايمه عالسرير شوية لحد ما حسيت بدينا دخلت الاوضة و جت قعدت جمبي عالسرير
دينا: عامله ايه دلوقتي؟
انا: الحمدلله
دينا: مش عايزة تكلميه؟
انا: عايزه .. بس مش هكلمه ،، اللي بينا خلص خلاص
Dina: why are you doing this?
Me: because i love him
Dina: then be with him
Me: no .. i love him too much to be with him you know?
Dina: i don't get it
Me: the way i love him, it hurts me.. knowing we will end this someday, somehow makes my heart ache .. if i end it now then maybe it'll hurt less, i don't want to love him more than i already do.
Dina: but maybe you don't have to end this .. you'll never know right?
Me: exactly, we'll never know. It's all up to him and i .. i just don't know if he's that serious about me to take it to the next level and decides to be with me forever ..
Dina: maybe you just need to enjoy this and stop worrying about where this is going
Me: how can i enjoy it without knowing how we'll end?
Dina: it's just .. i hate seeing you like that
Me: me too. But it's for the best
Dina: i hope you're right
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