Dark Poems.

mom

Mom I need help I need mental help. I'm tired of  acting like everything is OK I'm tired saying I'm fine when I'm not really fine I'm tired of lying to myself and others. I want my old happy life back but I can't get that back because it's been destroyed. It's like no body cares enough to really look me in the eyes and say are you OK ? Like why can't you see my pain. Your always next to me 24/7 I see you everyday why can't you hear my cries for help. Instead you yell or your angry and it's like I'm the target. Why is that mom?? I try to explain my problems but all you do is make it about you! My friends understand me more than anyone. They except the way I wanna dress the way I wanna talk the music I listen too. You don't. It's like you always have something to say about my doings however you must have forgotten your son was a drug addict. He put you through hell and back yet when you talk to him you don't yell or even get angry. But with me it's like your putting everything on me blaming me for everything why? Then you expect me to go to school and pay attention I can't! I can't pay attention when my mind is so clouded that It's hard to see Clearly it's a hard to walk without falling it's hard to eat without  throwing up or choking. It's hard to sleep without having nightmares it's getting harder to say I'm fine. Because honestly I'm not. I need help. - Talia G