sleeping pills and timezones ↻ ryden

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12:30 ryan: this is not how things were supposed to work out

12:31 ryan: we were supposed to be together

12:32 ryan: the plans got ruined brendon

12:33 ryan: what the hell am i going to do

time skip because i want to keep this within 30 chapters

04:45 ryan: your funeral is today

04:46 ryan: this is not how i expected us to be together again

04:50 ryan: i barely sleep anymore

04:52 ryan: i don't know what's gonna happen but i'll make my way through

04:54 ryan: you were my everything and now you're gone

05:00 ryan: i know the bullshit phrase the first step to grief is acceptance, but i don't want to

05:02 ryan: whenever my phone dings i think it's you but then it's just my mom

05:04 ryan: she's getting really concerned about me 

05:05 ryan: i should probably talk to her

05:08 ryan: i don't know what i'm even talking about anymore

05:10 ryan: i'm going to try to get some sleep

05:10 ryan: goodnight, bren