Me Annie, Johanna an delly all sat in silence on the train. We had a cart to ourselves like me Johanna an Annie had on our way to our games, but I don't think anybody was thinking about that too much. Annie seemed nervous about leaving Luca, Johanna's mind was obviously occupied with her an gales situation, although she didn't know we knew. And delly god knows what she is thinking. Me however couldn't think of nothin but the games, the interior an china all the same every single detail the same. Maybe I needed to repeat my game for the second time today, listing all the good things I have seen people do;
Rue, saving me from the careers an look after me after being stung by tracker jackers
Cinna sacrificing himself for the rebellion
Johanna making sure I got out alive
Finnick saving peeta's life
Johanna saving beetee an wiresss
Delly helping peeta back to health
Gale saving so many lives in 12
Peeta willing to die for me
Haymitch, for everything
Finnick saving my life, again
Everybody who lost their life in the rebellion
Most if my squad in the rebellion
Prim
An so much more that worked its way into my head.
"Katniss are you okay?" Annie asked placing a coffee in front of me.
"Yeah" I smiled sipping the coffee
"You haven't spoken in over an hour" Annie said.
An hour, it felt like minutes an hour that's how long it took me to list every act of kindess I've seen somebody do. Normally I think about it as I clean or I'm in the shower never really realising how much good has happened. And thanks to Annie for making me realise all life isn't bad.
"Just nervous I guess" I said, not even lying.
"Yeah I was like that on my wedding day" she smiled sweetly. "You will be fine"
"You have till Saturday anyway" delly said.
"I guess, how you feeling?" I asked delly
"tired, an sick, an tired" she laughed.
"How far are you?" Annie asked
"We'll I phoned the doctors an got referred to the midwife, she asked me loads of questions like 'when was your last period' 'have you slept with multiple partners' stuff like that. I told her an she said I'm about 11weeks" she replied
"Wow that's far, how long have you knew?" I asked
"About a month maybe, I only told thom about 2 weeks ago" she laughed.
"Midwives are so nosey" Annie said
"Oh I know, when she asked me my date of birth I could literally sense her draw drop when she eventually totted up im 17, well 18 now" delly smiled.
"Oh god!" I said laughing a little.
"you okay jo?" Annie asked sincerely.
"yeah" she smiled, but her eyes didn't.
"no you're not" I said
Annie looked at me shocked, she did the exact same face she gives Johanna when she's said something out of line or inappropriate.
"You heard didn't you" she said softly.
Me an Annie were sat facing each other, delly walked over sitting next to Annie gesturing for Johanna to sit next to me.
"Jo-" she cut me off
"No listen, I don't want to ruin your wedding okay? It will be fine, even if we don't stay together. I will be fine. I've done it before I can do it again, an If gale decides he doesn't want to be with me then that's his decision an I will just have to deal with it. Yeah It would hurt but I've been threw worse with men an everything else" she sadly smiled.
Annie looked confused.
"I er, I don't think you know but after my games I got pregnant an i was only 16 when i won" she took a deep breath checking if we were all following. "An you know snow liked to 'auction off' victors" she gave a sad laugh. "An me being me I said no" an then She cried, Johanna mason cried. "So, he did what he does killed my family an left my boyfriend, jace"
Delly passed her a tissue, an Annie stared at Johanna looking worried.
"I think he knew you know? Something was about to happen, so when I found out I was pregnant I didn't know what to do, I was about to tell jace, when you know snow killed him" she seemed to look distraught. "An I knew if I had this baby he would definitely have it put in the games an make sure they were brutally killed, so I couldn't go threw with it an i had an abortion" she shrugged.
"Jo I'm so sorry" delly said crying. "Sorry, hormones" delly cried.
This caused us all to giggle.
"What I'm saying Is I can handle it so don't be worried, yeah I will be incredibly sad an moodier than usual but I will get over it"
An that's when I realised how strong Johanna actually is.
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Learning to live
Fanfiction"What I need is a dandelion in the spring.The bright yellow that means rebirth instead of destruction.The promise that life can go on no matter how bad our losses. Only Peeta can give me that" The rebellion has ended, but Katniss will never stop b...
