Chapter 13: Lost
Leah
"Leah it's going to be okay," Justin assured me. I nodded and looked back onto the road. I wiped a tear off my cheek quickly and nodded a few more times.
"Don't cry please," Justin begged in a whisper. I began shaking my head as more tears fell down from my eyes.
"I'm sorry," I replied. I meant to speak softly, but my crying interfered and made my apology sound like a loud sob.
"Don't be," he spoke as he kissed my cheek gently.
I wanted to tell him how I really felt, so badly, but I decided since it waited five years, it could wait a few days more. I sighed as I continued driving.
Why was I beginning to be so mushy? All these feelings were coming out on this trip, and it was annoying as hell. First the anger, then the sympathy, now the imagined love.
'Break Even' by The Script started playing on the radio and being one of my favorite songs, I turned it up.
"I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in,
'Cause I got time while she got freedom,
'Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even.
"Her best days were some of my worst,
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first,
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping,
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even... even... no.
"What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok?
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces.
"They say bad things happen for a reason,
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding,
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving,
And when a heart breaks no it don't break even, even... no.
"What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you?
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok?
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces,
(One still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces,
('Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even)
"Oh, you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain,
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, ooh
'Cause you left me with no love and honor to my name.
"I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in,
'Cause I got time while she got freedom,
'Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break...
No, it don't break,
No, it don't break even, no.
"What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you?
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok?
(Oh glad you're okay now)
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
(Oh I'm glad you're okay)
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
(One still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces,
('Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even)
"Oh, it don't break even no,
Oh, it don't break even no,
Oh, it don't break even no."
"I love that song," I spoke quietly as the song faded and the radio station's jingle played. I moved my hands on the steering wheel and tucked some hair behind my ear.
"Me too," Justin replied softly. I felt the awkward tension come in between us, and as if on cue, it got a million times worse.
"Does Justin Bieber have a new girlfriend?" my eyes widened as I heard the lady from the radio speak.
"He has been spotted in many different locations around the country with a very familiar looking girl. These two were spotted in Las Vegas together looking very comfortable with each other. Could this mean Justin isn't available anymore?" I ran my fingers through my hair as I took a deep breath.
"Wow they find you fast," I whispered with a quick exhale.
"Yeah, it's kind of annoying," Justin admitted, honestly. I nodded and looked over to my side to merge over onto another lane, but also to avoid the awkward situation growing at the moment.
"Justin, do you miss being younger when there were no cameras?" I asked randomly out of pure curiosity.
"Sometimes, but the fans are worth it you know?" he replied and I nodded. I liked that response. I liked how he always put his fans first. How he treated them so well, and acknowledged that they were the reason he was in this position. He was so humble about that, and I loved that about him. Who wouldn't?
As I kept driving I looked over at Justin every now and then who was now asleep. I shook my head and laughed and refocused myself on the road ahead of me. We weren't too far from the hospital at this point, and I just wanted to get there soon to find out what happened. I want to know what is going on and why my mother would not tell me.
I don't understand how I'm going to make it through this trip without worrying every five minutes. Did something go wrong with one of my family members? Did my mom find out that I cut? Is she sending me to the hospital for rehabilitation? What if that does happen? I can't just go to rehab! I have college! I have stuff to do, and I can't just leave to go to some stupid place to 'get well.' I already am well! What if they think I'm still like I used to be? I'm not like that anymore, I'm fixed now! I fixed myself!
"Shit," I muttered as I shook my head out of my thoughts and pulled over. I stopped paying attention to where I was going as I began stressing out and worrying. I got out of the car and looked around. "Perfect, we're lost."
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Christmas Love
FanfictionLeah was just trying to get home for Christmas, as was Justin Bieber. Who knew a simple bump at the airport could lead to something this big?
