California

19

4 weeks later

I just got back from the hospital and I was laying in taylers bed . Jackson had to go back to Wisconsin for a while , kelianne was back with her family and Cody , Joey , Tayler , and I were all in his room doing nothing .

Tayler, Cody , and I were laying sideways so our legs were hanging off of the sides of the bed , and Joey was laid on top of all of us .

H- hey babe

J-hey Hannah

H- what's wrong

J- nothing

H- Jackson , don't lie to me

J- I'll tell you when I come back to Cali

H- when are you gonna come back then ?

J- I don't know

I rolled my eyes and rolled off of the bed and landed with a thump on the floor .

"I meant do that " I said as everyone was laughing at me

"Sure" joey said not believing me . I went out to he kitchen and sat on the counter . I called Jackson because I knew something was up  . On the third ring Jackson answered

"Jackson , don't lie to me . I know there is something wrong . So you might as well tell me now "I said not letting him speak

"Um I have to stay in Wisconsin . So uhhh I'm breaking up with you " he said

"Please tell me you're kidding "I said mostly to myself

"I'm not , I'm really sorry we had to do this over phone " he said

"Forget it "I said then hung up. I told Jackson everything and he was always here for me . His attitude changed today . He never talked to me like that . He always talked to me like he cared for me .

I broke down crying on the counters . I leaned against the mahogany cabinets and cried . I didn't notice anyone coming until Cody spoke

"What's wrong Hannah ?" He asked coming over to me .

"It-its nothing "I said using the heel of my hand and wiping away my tears

"Hannah , please tell me what's wrong " Cody said

"Jackson broke up with me "I said. Cody didn't say anything , but he just hugged me .

"I'm sorry he did that to you " Cody said

"It's fine . You couldn't stop it anyway "I said hopping down from the counter

"I'll uh be right back "I said walking away and going up to my room . I guess it's my room .

I walked to it and grabbed my headphones . I had two options . 1) go to the roof and stay up there or 2) go to the balcony and sit on the ledge . I think I'll go with option one .

I quietly walked down the stairs to the living room and didn't see anyone in there . I walked up to the roof and sat in a corner .

I didn't realize till now how much California is different from Alabama and Canada . In Alabama there was places you could sit down and not be bothered . It wasn't so noisy there . It was kind of in the country . Of course in Alabama it was hot but it cooled down some and it would rain a lot there .

In California there  is no place to sit down and be alone . And I noticed I need a spot for that . I like being a lone . It's hella noisy here too . And it never rains here . And I love the rain . I always have .

I'm so sorry I haven't updated since like last month and this is hella bad too. But I'm kinda uncomfortable to write when Jackson has a boyfriend, and I'm out of that phase now . I'm in a new district phases and uh I need help