Girl of Never (Chat MD Series #4)

Day 353

(Neah's snail mail to Jia)

Dear Jianna,

First… don't get a goosebump. Hindi kita minumulto. I am writing this on the night of August 04, as an insurance. Ibibilin ko kay Dr. Hughes na ipadala sayo tong sulat by July 22, 20xx, wherever you are. Since you are healthy, I expected that you're still alive by then. Gosh, please be alive.

If you get to receive this, it means, I have died just a few days after writing this. (Again, don't get goosebumps!)

The reason I'm writing to you is to ask for a favor. When you visited me at Stanford after my transplant, ikinuwento ko si Harry sayo. I told you how I feel for him. I asked you kung anong gagawin ko kung gusto ko siyang mahalin kahit na posibleng hindi ako magtatagal. You told me to just risk with a chance if he's worth it.

I want to thank you for that time. You're my wake-up call to be brave enough for a chance with him. Now I couldn't imagine how I have survived all these years without his love.

He already proposed to me and I said yes. But we both knew, that this heart I have is failing.

Everyday, I felt this new heart giving up. I don't know how long I will last kaya naisipan ko to.

I gave this love a chance because I believed he is worth it. But I'm afraid I'm going away anytime soon. And I worry for Harry.

I've been looking at him for a long time so I know how he might behave kapag nawala ako. He won't be able to just accept it. He would surely mourn for a long time.

I am preparing certain means to let him know I'm letting him go so he'll live his life. It's two to three years from now.

Natatakot kasi ako na kapag masyadong maaga akong nagparamdam sa kanya, mas mahirapan siyang mag-move on. I think, 2-3 years is enough time for his feelings to calm down. Si Harry kasi, intense. He won't just back down and give me up.

So, sa haba ng sinabi ko… all I want to ask you is to check on him. To watch over him. Lalo na on his birthday on August 05. Please stalk him if you must.

If you see him mourning at my grave on his birthday instead of celebrating, please do something for him. I don't know who or why but let him meet someone he would be fond of.

I don't want him stuck with me. I don't want him broken.

Please find someone who will get his attention. Make sure she's smart because Harry has a quick wit. Make sure she has a good laugh (troll kasi si Harry). Make sure she has a good heart, good genes, and a love for science. Make sure she's someone who will be a good pair for him.

You're the only one I could trust on this because your smart is the same with Harry's smart.

Watch over him for me. Make sure he's happy. Make sure he's loved.

This is my last wish to you, Nana.

Neah

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P.S. If you don't have a boyfriend or someone remotely close to a romantic prospect, check Harry. I might get a little jealous when I see you with him wherever I may be by the time you read this… but if there's someone I would approve of for taking him away from me, it would be you. (I am serious so take me seriously. Don't dare laugh this one off. Mumultuhin talaga kita pag tinawanan mo lang ako.)

P.P.S. I'm leaving Mom and Dad in your care, too.

P.P.P.S. I love you! X