Girl of Never (Chat MD Series #4)

Day 38

(Jia's journal)

I'm out of words. The him now and back then are total opposites. All the dreams, the laughter, and the life were left behind on a different life—the clues were posted on a timeline.

I thought before that he was just stuck. That he's just someone who loved too much and could not move on. Now, I think, he was spent. He emptied all of himself for a love he believed to be true. He poured all of himself for a love he wanted to cherish. He dedicated all of himself for a love he wanted to see through the end.

And love took everything from him because he gave it all. How much did it hurt when it was all taken away? How much did he beg for the pain to end? How much did he cry?

How did he manage to stay sane?

Love tire his soul. And now, he's just empty.

To love someone like him is suicide. To desire to be loved by him is ridiculous. He's stuck in another time. He's invested in another love. His heart was out of reach.

And yet, even in his pain, he is magnificent. Even in his silence, he stands out. Even in his weary, he is beautiful. Even in the darkness where he chose to dwell, he shines.

What to do with you, boy? I'm too blinded by you.