In which Dan breaks, and things with Phil get worse
Dan's pov
I had just gotten off of a particularly maddening phone call with my parents, and I was fuming. I stormed out of my room, earbuds in ear, and drowned out everything. I couldn't talk to anyone else or do anything that could possibly make things worse, and listening to music was the one thing that could make me shut up.
I walked into the kitchen and grabbed the last of our cereal supply and scarfed it down. I did this thing where I would feel one emotion very heavily until it faded away; either to a normal state if a good emotion, or practically anything if a bad one. This time it happened to be what it normally was whenever I had a fight with Phil; regret.
He walked into the kitchen not knowing about my sour mood, and tapped my shoulder lightly. I sighed, pulled one bud out, and demanded "what is it, phil?" Instantly he knew something was wrong. "Dan, did something go wrong?" I shook my head, and said "just go away, I don't want to talk."
Whenever I was mad, I tended to do stupid things. Whether it was just poor judgement or rash decisions, it happened frequently, and this time was no different. "Um, okay, well if you need anything, I-"
"Just go away! God, Phil, listen for once.I can handle things by myself." It still would've been completely unnecessarily harsh, even if I had said it in a different tone, but oh no. I snapped at him, and he obviously hated it.
"I'm just trying to help, why do you act like you don't need me anymore? Like I'm just here, waiting to be thrown out? Am I a crumpled up piece of paper to you? A footnote in your happiness?"
He looked genuinely hurt, but I wasn't having it. "I'm sorry Phil, I'm sorry that I'm not the same depressed, angsty teenager that I was. I'm sorry that I don't bother you every time I have another stupid extential crisis. I've learned to just suck it up and be somewhat happy, can't you accept that?"
He stared at me; his eyes were cold. "No, I can't Dan. I know things aren't good, but you've just become a stubborn shell of the person you used to be. So no, I won't accept it, because you've changed doing it. I know you, half of the reason you're like this is because you're keeping it to yourself."
"Stop blaming this on me, you know nothing about what I'm going through right now. Most of it would'nt be here in the first place if you hadn't uploaded that video. Just go away, I don't need this right now."
He glared at me, and my heart instantly plummeted. I cursed myself in my head. I had just destroyed everything, and I had no idea how to fix it.
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Welp, that's something. I just kinda like edited it again lightly, I changed the ending a tiny bit n stuff. Ahh I'm terrible with endings. And beginnings. And the middle. Anyways, if you've already read this, you don't need to re-read it, it's barely changed. Just got a tiny bit better.
~ Maddie
