"I'm fine...." "...No you're not" BTS Jin Ff

Part 12: I'm fine

"Are you sure?"
"Yes."
I took my mask off tired of wearing.
"Are you really sure?"
She nodded in response.

"What happened?" I asked.
"Nothing." She said bluntly.

"Look I'm fine, I'm grateful for you and your music and I've always wanted to meet you before but at the moment I don't want anything from you." She started walking away.

I wanted to comfort her, I wanted to be there, hold her but she doesn't seem to want it. She seemed so broken and lost, I don't know what happened between her and that woman in the house but I know that it wasn't good.

Jia pov

As I walked away I let out more tears, my heart ached. I shouldn't have left, appa would still be alive if I didn't. Did I cause him a lot of stress?

I was walking back to the cafe just to pick up my stuff.

"Jia!" I heard Jisu behind me. I turned around as she hugged me tightly. I pushed her away from me.

"Appa is dead...." I said coldly. Anger set in her eyes as they watered.

"How is this happening to us?" she yelled a little.

"What do you mean to us?" She looked a little taken aback.

"What are you talking about?" Tears still pouring out of her eyes.

"You left. You left home, you ran away from eomma. Y-you left me all by m-myself, I had no one, I didn't have anyone to talk to, no one who would listen. All of you left without saying good-bye." I was now crying, letting out all the anger I held onto for the last 9 years.

"First Jihyong, then Jiyoung and then you, all left me. You don't know how much I suffered, I never let people KNOW how much I suffered, I didn't want to feel pity, I didn't want people to know how I felt because I was too scared that I'll be abandoned again." I was crying loudly, I looked at Jisu, she looked stunned.

"I'm sorry, I left without saying goodbye, I was going to take you with me but mum didn't allow that to happen, all of us tried to get you away from mum, even dad, he called me a few days ago and told me that you ran away." She grabbed my hand and held tightly. I've missed her so badly but I'm so angry at her, not just her, everyone. I really thought I could trust her but she suddenly just left.

*flashback 2 years*

"I love you unnie." You cried onto her shoulder.

"I do to." Jisu said but she seemed distanced to you. You were crying from the yelling that was happening upstairs.

"Do you promise to not leave like the others did?"

"I would never leave you, never. I could never leave you." She said reassuring you.

But it turned out the next week, you came home from school and found your sister's empty room. None of her belonging were there, almost as if no one ever was in that room.

*end of flashback*

I cried, feeling more alone than ever, I cried harder than when Jiyoung left, I don"t even remember what he looked like, I don't even remember my oldest brother, Jihyong.

"I never wanted to hurt you, all of us never wanted to hurt you." I saw the last thing I ever wanted to see from her, pity, I could see it in her eyes, I hated being pitied, I hated letting people see what I'm doing now, being a giant mess.

"Stop." I was still crying but I was able to talk properly without stuttering.

"Jia, I'm so sorry." she kept on apologizing.

"No, I've missed you so much and I thought I would be so happy to see you but all I feel is anger. I don't want you to comfort me in pity." She hugged me but I pushed her away, she looked hurt but I didn't care anymore. I didn't care if she hated me back for what I was about to say next.

"Go back to where you've been, I don't want to see you." I didn't care if I was being rude, I don't care about anything anymore. She looked down sadly, she turned around and walked away. She left me standing there with regret, but I stood my ground.

I hated myself, I couldn't believe what I just said to my sister who I haven't seen for four years. I knew I shouldn't have said that, I clenched fists and started walking back to where I was staying. As I was walking, I felt a hand turn me around and pulled me to somewhere else.

"Where are you staying?"
"Jin?" He nodded.
"What are you doing, I said I'm fine." He had taken off his mask and was studying me.
"What?"
"Then what are these?" He poked my cheeks. I felt my face realised I was still crying.

"I repeat, where are you staying?" In response I pointed down the street. He smiled and grabbed my hand and dragged me down the streets.

He stared at me while I got my keys out to open the door, as the door opened he barged in before me. And before I could walk in he came back out with a large suitcase. It took a second for me to realise it was mine. He then took my keys for the room from my hand and threw them into the room and shut the door. Before I could say anything else he started dragging me out of the building and in another direction. He pushed me into his car that was still parked near the cafe. He put my suitcase in the back and started to drive.

"Where are you taking me??" I looked at him but he didn't look at me nor talk to me. I frowned.

After a 20 minute drive, he parked the car. He turned to me finally spoke.

"Why?" He simply asked. I rolled my eyes at him.

"I need a little more information than that." I laughed a little.

"Stop." He said, he looked emotionless.

"Stop what?" I looked at him while smiling.

"With the act, I gotta admit, you look convincing but I can see it through your act. It's like you're afraid of sharing your feelings, you shouldn't. Your friends at the cafe are just confused, if actually let them know what is really happening, they would support you." He lectured me.

After he said that, his expression softened. I didn't see pity, I saw his worried expression and I felt my smile fall.

"I'm fi-"
I got cut off with him putting his-

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