I'm Broken, But I'll Try (Charles Xavier x reader)

The One Who Gave Up

  TRIGGER WARNING!
Also Charles and (y/n) are sort of an item at this point but nothing has been confirmed yet.

Reader's POV

With my knees tucked tightly to my chest, I sobbed quietly as the man who just had his way with me gathered up his stuff and left. I was currently on the dirty floor of a night club. After convincing Charles and Erik to let me, Sean and Alex leave to go to the city for the night, I did not expect it to turn out this way.

I stood, sorting out my  in the mirror. My makeup was smudged from where I had been crying, I cleaned it up as best I could before grabbing my bag from the floor and running out. My body was racked with pain, I could tell I would wake up with bruises tomorrow - he had grabbed my throat and hit my face multiple times, the stinging around my cheek and eye were a constant reminder of that.

I sniffled and exhaled as the loud club music rang through my ears as soon as I exited the bathroom. From where I was stood I couldn't see Alex or Sean, so I decided to walk to the bar. I was already tipsy but after what I just experienced, I'm gonna need a lot more alcohol in my system. I didn't bother to sit down, I just want to get out of here. I ordered a shot, downing it in one, leaving my tip and pay on the counter for the bartender, he smiles his thanks.

My head starts to spin, the music was too loud and I was in so much pain. I'll find Alex and Sean later, I just need to get out of here, I thought. Pushing my way through the crowds of sweating bodies I find the exit. I push through and immediately sigh when the cool autumnal air hits me.

I stand there for a moment, recollecting myself. My eyes still watered as I looked back at the club. Pulling out my phone I texted Alex letting him know that I've already gone home. I stumbled my way forward, with a heavy sigh I started the long walk back to the mansion.

--- Time skip bought to you by G Eazy's hair ---

It must've taken about an hour and a half to get back to the mansion. I had sobered up but still felt awful. The pain in my body hadn't subsided in the slightest, and instead bought a massive headache along with it. I kept reliving it, his hands on my, touching me. Makes me feel sick just thinking about it.

It was about 2am so I'd have to be quiet. Oh god what will Charles think? I sigh rubbing my head. If I had just listened to him, he said it'd be too dangerous considering we're mutants. But, what happened wasn't because I was a mutant. It was just humans being absolute scum as normal.
I managed to open the front door quietly enough. Sneaking into my own house, ironic. I locked the door behind me and started towards the stairs to go to my room. Only to be interrupted by the one and only professor.
"(y/n)?" His sweet voice asks, it's soothing to my ears. I stop, but don't turn around.

"Yeah?" I ask, hiding the pain in my voice.

"Where are the others? Are you okay? You seem troubled," I can hear him walking up behind me, slowly and fairly cautiously.
"I left early. I uhm, I didn't feel too well. I'm fine though," I refused to look at him, knowing full well that I'd probably break down as soon as I looked into those stunning blue eyes.
"(y/n) you don't seem fine," Charles says, grabbing my arm in a gentle manner. However that gentle manner wasn't enough, I couldn't let him or anyone else touch me, not after what happened. I jerked away with a quick intake of breath. I turned around so we were both facing each other, he could see me on the brink of tears, his brows furrowed in confusion.
"I need you to tell me what happened," Charles said softly, "You know I'll find out somehow,"
I could feel him using his power on me, trying to search my mind for what had happened. And when he came too close I shut him out, I fell to the ground and covered my ears. Tears streamed from my eyes as I sobbed.
"Stay the fuck out of my head Charles!" I warned. I could feel my own power beginning to get too much.
He walked forwards slowly, his own eyes watery.
"Just let me help you, (y/n)," He cooes. He bends down to my height and looks my in the eyes. He slowly raised his hand up to my head. Flashes of the guy from the bar flew through my head and I stood up, pushing Charles to the floor and running off.
"I'm warning you now, Charles, stay the fuck out of my head!" I yell as I ran to my room. I could hear him call my name, he started to follow me again. I managed to run into my room and slam the door shut, locking it. I could hear a few mutants getting up, I shouldn't have been so loud, fuck.

I could hear Charles quietly telling them to return to their rooms. My body hurt so bad, I sobbed quietly into my hands. My powers were aching through my veins, ready for me to burst and destroy this entire place. Of course I didn't want that to happen, so I tried my absolute best to calm down.
(<--You guys should check out the link here to understand the mutation)

Erik had found me because I was being held in a mental institute, my parents had sent me there after nearly burning down the entire house. But there was an accident, a nightmare had caused another explosion and I destroyed the entire psychiatric ward, Erik had found me and bought me to Charles.

I'd managed to calm down, sliding my back down the wall, I let out a shaky breath. I heard a quiet knock on the door.
"Go away," I mumbled quietly. I heard a small shuffle.
"(y/n)? It's just me and Charles, please open the door," Erik said soothingly. I sigh, giving in. I stood up, unlocked the door and went to my bed, I sat down with my hands in my lap. They both soon entered and Erik came and sat next to me, wrapping an arm around my shoulder as Charles stood in front of me. I flinched silently as Erik's arm came around me, I just kept reminding myself that it was Erik, and that he wasn't going to hurt me.
"What happened?" Erik said quietly. The floor suddenly became very appealing. My eyes threatened to spill again as I choked.
"They- He, uhm," I stuttered and choked a silent sob. I leant into Erik and cried, he held me comfortingly and wrapped both arms around me, pressing a loving kiss to my forehead.
"(y/n) do you mind if I look?" Charles asked softly, he was now kneeling in front of me, I let out a shaky breath but nodded gently, gripping onto Erik's arm.
I closed my eyes and focused on keeping my heart rate low, knowing that Erik could feel my blood started to boil. It took a few painful minutes, but when I looked back at Charles he had a few tears running down his cheeks as he deadpanned.
"She was raped." Charles said bluntly, but the pain was evident in his voice. I choked a sob.
"Don't." I started "Don't you dare say that word," Erik's grip loosened ever so slightly. I pushed my way up, walking over to my mirror I studied my eye, that had a small gash on, and had started to form in a dark bruise. I pulled my collar down and saw handprint-bruises on my neck that had formed too.

The two mutants talked quietly behind me, before I heard one of them leave. I looked in the reflection and saw that Charles had stayed and Erik had left. Charles suddenly walked straight into my bathroom, confusion written on my face I peered round. He had started to run a bath, and he walked back over was the water was running right. He smiled softly at me, then gently wrapped his arms around me.

His tall, warm frame covers me, protecting me. He kisses the top of my head and leads me into the bathroom by my hand, I sit down on the closed toilet seat. Charles kneels down in front of my and unties my shoes, taking them off along with my socks.
"I'm asking you to trust me, (y/n). I can leave at any point you'd like." He smiles sweetly at me and presses another kiss to my forehead. I nod and let him continue. Charles had seen me naked before, one of the downsides of your mutation burning up your entire body, no clothes yay.

I stood up and took off my shirt, removing my top aswell and throwing them to the side by the sink. I was in my underwear at this point. I walked to the bath and turned off the water. Charles smiled warmly at me, but I could see his eyes wandering over the bruises on my body. I covered some with my arms, ashamed. I looked down and shuffled my feet.
"I am so sorry, (y/n). I should have been there," Charles whispered quietly. He walked slowly over to me again and placed two fingers under my chin. He leaned forward, painfully slow. He searched for any signs of rejection. When I gave him none, he proceeded to graze my lips with his, softly. I leaned into him, and kissed him ever so softly.
"There was nothing you could have done," I whispered, turning around and discarding the rest of my clothes before gently getting into the bath. The hot water eased my tensed, aching muscles, I sighed content.

"I-I love you, (y/n)" Charles murmers quietly. I look over at him, he's crying slightly, but smiles warmly at me nontheless. I crack a small smile back,
"I love you too, Charles."