[Book 3] And that's what makes our love real.

one hundred thirty six: rude

Zac

"C'mon, just one dance, Zac."

"We have to make Zac dance everyone!"

"Dance, dance!"

Uminom ako ng wine at hindi ko sila masyadong pinapansin, I just smiled at them but I will not dance and I can't really dance that well.

"No, guys, I will not dance." Sabi ko sa kanila and they are now disappointed.

Bet they are.

Ewan ko ba kung bakit ako ulit nandito sa bar kasama sila Jack. Ang bored kase sa bahay, hindi pa bumabalik sila uncle Jon siguradong nagpropropose na siya kay mom and I'm glad for them if that happens tonight.

"So, tell me bro, how's life?" Tanong ni Jack.

"Fine."

"C'mon! Spill."

"No." Sagot ko at uminom ulit ako sa shot ko.

"Or I'll make Denny-"

"Don't fuck with me right now, Jack."

"Why not? I'm a good fucker." Tawa niyang sabi, "Anyway, just drink all shots you want, it's my treat!"

"Whatever." Sagot ko at nakikita kong tinatawanan kami ni Jayze which is yung kaibigan kong bartender.

"Oh god, Zac." He groans, "Birthday ko ngayon, hindi mo man lang naalala?"

Napatingin ako sa kanya, "Really? Well, birthday to you."

"Walang happy ganon?"

"I'm not happy, so... birthday lang." I teased.

"Fuck you."

Napatawa naman ako sa kanya, kaya pala ang daming tao ngayon, libre niya pala lahat. Buti nalang at wala yung iba namin kaibigan, I'm wild and free.

Ininom ko na yung pang-apat kong shots at talaga nga naman na nagpapalipas nalang talaga ako ng oras dito at para pagdating sa bahay, bagsak na. Wala nako masyadong iisipin especially my miserable life.

But of course, my nightmares will never go.

"More shots, Jayze." Sabi ko sa kanya at binigyan naman niya ako kagad.

"You have to be careful, man. You'll get sick."

"Me? No way. I'm sickproof." Biro ko and I drink my fifth shot.

"Excuse me, can I get a tequila?" Boses ng babae yung narinig ko at tumabi ito sakin pero hindi ko naman siya i-eentertain. Hindi ako interesado.

"Coming right up." Sagot naman ni Jayze.

Kinuha ko yung phone ko at tinignan ko ulit yung wallpaper ng phone ko, fuck, she's my goddess. She's my Aprodite.

I miss you, Alexandra. So fucking much.

"Depressed?"

Tanong ng babae pero hindi ko siya pinansin kundi nakatingin lang ako sa picture.

"Excuse me, I'm talking to you."

Hindi ko pa rin siya sinagot, hindi ba siya nakakahalata na wala akong sa mood para makipag-usap sa kanya? O kahit sinuman?

"Are you deaf?"

Napatingin ako sa kanya dahil sa sinabi niya, ginagago ba ako nito?

"What the fuck did you say?" Inis kong sabi.

"Woah there, tiger!" Gulat niyang sabi, "So, you're not deaf." Tawa niyang sabi at napatigil ako sa tawa niya.

Yung tawa niya parang si Alexandra. Her eyes and the shape of her face... parang parehas kay Alexandra. But she's not her.