Complete me

Chapter 1

"Have you ever felt as if your life didn't fit you? Like if you had been empty for a long time not knowing exactly what was missing. It must be the most bothering feeling someone could ever get. I feel so empty, so incomplete but above all things I feel selfish. Selfish because in reality i have all i could ever ask for. Is it my fault? Am i not enough? Am i going crazy? I'm so tired of this feeling. If i at least knew what was missing i could at least be able to change it? Or could i? All that i know, is that right now i feel like the only thing i need is a little miracle... Shame miracles don't really exist isn't it?"

Camila read this while she kept going through the pages of her diary. She nearly made an attempt to smile at this last sentence. How she had changed so much in less than a year seemed almost scary to her. Not only was she a completely different person from then but also her life was. It never got better though. Suddendly she felt the anxiety through her veins and all of her body. Why was she even reading her old diary in the first place? It didn't matter now though. She needed to let it all out.

Camila went to the corner of her room and picked up her old guitar, then she sat on the floor with a blank notebook next to her and just let herself go. As fourty minutes had passed she held the notebook and started reading everything that she had come up with. Afterwards, all she could see was everything coming back to her in flashes.

It was a surprisingly cold october morning in Miami and as usual Camila was already late to school.

"DINAH YOU ARE GOING TO KILL US CAN YOU PLEASE BE CAREFUL" Camila shouted loudly as she held onto her seat next to Dinah.

"Girl, i thought you wanted to be there in time! Besides, i can't be late to any more of Jimmy's classes. I've already missed so many he thinks i'm skipping them." said the taller girl.

"That's because you've been skipping them Dinah. You know that after all that's happened i'm happy that you and Siope are dating but if you keep missing classes you're going to fail all of your subjects this year. Aswell as leaving me alone in class which is nowhere close to being nice." objected Camila with a bit of annoyance.

"Mila, don't worry about me, you know my smart ass can handle everything. And about me leaving you alone, don't be so dramatic, you've got Taylor in class with you too." said the blonde girl with a glance of sassiness on her tone.

She was right. She had Taylor and although they had been friends from only a few months now, she felt as if she could trust her fully. She had known who Taylor was for over a year now, but they hadn't talked until they ended up being in the same class this year. They had so many things in common but Camila missed her best friend.
Camila had lived in Cuba until the age of twelve when her mom had a chance to get a better job outside the country. Camila had always been a silly, cheerful and happy child somehow different from the rest. But those same differences that made her so special became a living nightmare once she moved to Miami. She was now the foreign kid, and although she had managed to make friends they all had left her at some point for "cooler people". That went on until she was fourteen when she met Normani and Dinah. They were the closest friends but for whatever reason she had felt an instant conection with Dinah from the moment they met. And now, they had been each other's person for three years.

"Okay, i won't try to make you stay with me anymore. You can leave me for your new lover now. I thought you were different Cheechee. I though what we had was real. What are we going to tell the children now?" said Camila while she fake cried.

"Oh my god. You're such a dork. Why am I even friends with you? I'm too fabulous for this type of scenes." replied Dinah while making a cute face."But for real, i'm sorry Chancho, but that's the only free time Siope and I have for..."

"I've heard enough" said Camila with an expression of disgust on her face.

"Hey, it's not my fault if you and Austin haven't spiced up things on a while, you know?" said Dinah trying to joke, although she was most certainly right.

"Don't even mention him to me now, please" Camila's expression changed to a more serious one.

"But i thought you had made up yesterday? It can't be possible that he has fucked up things again in less than 24h. That would be a new record" said the Polyneshian girl not being impressed.

"You're right we made up yesterday. But i'm so tired Dinah... I'm constantly scared because i don't know how long will this time last until he does something stupid again. And the worst part is that the times where we are actually okay are getting shorter and shorter as time passes." Camila was now looking down upset at her phone. She had been dating Austin for six months now. At the beggining he was so charming but when the first two months of their relationship had passed, Camila went to Cuba to visit their family and Austin cheated on her with his ex. She forgave him because he had seemed to be really sorry about it and also because it was her first relationship and she thought nobody else could have the ability to like her. If they did people wouldn't be always leaving her, right? Besides Austin was handsome, older and he was about to start studying medicine in collegue. For the following month after she had forgiven him, everything was going smoothly, she had even lost her virginity to him over the summer. But after having done it a few times, Austin starting being a jerk again. However Camila kept always forgiving him for the same haunting reason.

"Do i need to kick certain dorito boy's balls? Because god knows i will" said Dinah winking at Camila.

The smaller girl just laughed and a sudden silence filled the car.

"Dinah... Why do you call Mr. Jones Jimmy? You know that's not even his real name right?" asked Camila out of nowhere.

"I do it because i can" replied Dinah with sassiness. "Any other questions chancho?"

Camila stared at Dinah for a few seconds. "I love you, Dinah" with a smile on her face.

"Ew, idiot" said Dinah for a second trying to keep her cool façade. "I love you too" she said rapidly afterwards smiling at the smaller girl.

Sometimes Camila wished she could like Dinah in a romantic way. Everything would be easier. Unfortunately, things don't always work the way we want them to. Even if sometimes we don't realise that's because the better is yet to come.

Hi guys! This is my first Camren fanfic. I've had this on mind for a few months now so i needed to get it out of my chest. Don't worry Lauren will come to scene soon ;)
I'm sorry if there's any grammar mistakes, my first language is not english but i'm trying. Feel free to comment because i'd really value your thoughs. Have a nice day/afternoon/evening loves!