A Written Love Story -- For the Hundredth Time

(11) BFF Talks and Someone Rocks. (★)

(11) BFF Talks and Someone Rocks.

(Chen – BABALA: Masyadong conyo.)

I still can’t forget ang nangyari nung gabing yun. Yung kiniss ako ni Gerard sa pisngi. It meant so much to me... kahit pa sinabi niyang i-forget ko nalang yun.

But now kasi iniiwasan na niya ako. Wala lang talaga ata yun. Maybe, that’s just how he is. Gusto niya ata na i-forget ko na siya. At ang memory na yun ang gusto niyang iwan sa'kin bilang kahuli-hulihang memory niya. Hay! Ang drama ng life noh? Well. Hindi naman ako super nagka-gusto sa taong yun. It's good that he did this to me before I totally fall in love with him. He's great for that. Pero, naiinis lang ako isipin na he made me assume. Or ako lang yun? But anyway, he shouldn’t have kissed me nalang – kahit sa cheeks lang yun – kasi it’s like he liked me but not like liked me.

Pero I smell something fishy sa lalakeng to eh.

He's ignoring me when we meet. Yung kaming dalawa lang, bump in the hallway or something like that. Pero when I’m with Ren, he acts like... the normal him. Alam mo yun? Parang timang lang.

There was this one day that I just smiled at him but he just stared like I was a total stranger. And then he walked away like he hadn’t seen me. But, there was also another time na naglalakad ako kasama si Ren. She greeted him. I didn’t bother greeting him kasi alam kong hindi rin niya ko papansinin.

"Hi, Ren!" And he smiled. "Oh. Hi there, Chen! Musta na?"

Jerk. A total and absolute jerk. A freaking stupid, spineless jerk.

So nag-fake nalang ako ng smile and I waved my hand a little. And when I rolled my eyes, his smile faded. What does he think of me? I'm not an idiot. I don't even look like an idiot. I’m very far from looking like an idiot! And I don't play stupid, either. Well... Para sakin, I think it's confirmed. He likes Ren. Kaya niya ako iniiwasan kasi ayaw niya sirain ang friendship namin. How cool. Pero mas cool kung sinabi na niya agad, kung inamin nalang niya sa’kin kesa he’s doing this to me. I must’ve understood him more, at hindi yung nag-iiwasan kami ng ganito na para bang may past kami or what.

I mustn’t be thinking of that guy right now. I’m with Ren today. It’s a great February afternoon, malapit narin ang Arts Festival, and we decided to stay at the school park before our 3PM classes start. Mahangin kasi at nakakatanggal ng stress. Pagkaupo namin, nasabi ko nalang, "ikaw na talaga teh! You already!"

"Ako na ang ano?" Mukha siyang na-shock. Kasi nga naman, bigla-bigla din akong napa-sabi ng ganun. Naisip ko lang din kasi yun nga, that’s what I am thinking about habang naglalakad kami papunta rito.