i hate u, i love u

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You cross my mind when I'm sleeping
I dream of you when I wake up
I cross my heart and hope to fly away if I can't have you
I think of you in the afternoon, when I keep my thoughts to myself
You say that I don't know you, but I know some thing you don't

I won't stop till I have you
(till you're mine)
I won't be just fine
(till you're mine)
I won't sing another fucking note until you're mine, all mine, all mine
until you're mine, all mine, all mine

Staying up all night, waiting for a likeful compromise
But you're alright, and you're just gonna sleep down on the floor
Seeing I can't close my eyes, cause you're lying 3 feet to my side
But you're alright
and you're just gonna sleep down on the floor, face down
Trying to catch some rest

I won't stop till I have you
(till you're mine)
I won't be just fine
(till you're mine)
I won't sing another fucking note until you're mine, all mine, all mine
until you're mine, all mine, all mine
I won't sing another note until you're mine, all mine, yeah all mine

I sat by the pool in the backyard, my feet in the water, a cigarette between my index and middle fingers on my right hand. I'm leaning on my left hand, taking draws from the cigarette. It's September 30th. Regina's 9 months pregnant now. The baby's due on October 3rd. I haven't even talked to Regina since she left. She hasn't tried to talk to me either. I brought my cigarette up to my lips, taking another drag and I kicked some water up from the pool. I blew the smoke out through my mouth and sighed after. I finished the nursery. It's beautiful. We already had it planned out. I finished off my cigarette and put out the butt beside me, then tossed it into the ashtray by my favorite deck chair. My hairs in a messy bun, I'm wearing gym shorts and an old band t-shirt with the sleeves cut off. "You know, smoking is a bad habit." A sultry voice whispered in my ear. I didn't even jump. "Yeah well it's better than day drinking." I mumbled. it's only 9 am. Regina sat down beside me, sliding her feet into the water and she sighed. I glanced over and couldn't contain my smile. She's not very big to be 9 months pregnant. But she's more beautiful than ever. "You're beautiful." I mumbled. She looked at me before pulling my face to hers, kissing me hard. I moaned as I kissed her back passionately and then she pulled away, drawing a whimper from me. She smiled. "No more smoking. It's not good for any of us. Especially not our children." She said and tears built in my eyes. "You consider Henry... our child?" I asked and she smiled and nodded. I crushed our lips together and held her close to me. "I love you so much." I whispered as we pulled away. She smiled, her hand tangled in my hair and nodded. "I love you more." She whispered. I shook my head. "Not possible." I said. She smiled and wiped my tears away. "How about... a little skinny dipping." Regina said and smirked. I nodded and we both stood up, taking the initiative to strip each other. There's a big fence around the backyard so it's private. When we were both naked, Regina pulled me into her, kissing me passionately. I moaned and we kissed for several minutes, our hands exploring each other's body's. When we pulled away, I went to the deep end, diving in. When I came back up, Regina was wading in the water already. I swam over and pushed her up against the pool wall, our lips tangling together. I ran my right hand down her body, stopping at the heat between her legs and she moaned in my mouth. I pushed her legs apart and immediately pushed 2 fingers into her, causing her to pull away and to lean her head back against the pool edge. I continued thrusting my fingers into her until she moaned out that she was close and I brought my thumb up, connecting it with her clit as I added two more fingers. She let out a scream as her body spasmed and she came hard, moaning my name. I bit my lip and watched as she rode out her orgasm on my hand. Her breathing finally calmed down and that's when I pulled out my fingers, causing her to moan. "Fuck Emma. It's been too long." She said, softly. I nodded. "I missed you." I mumbled. She nodded. "I missed you too. So so much. And so did Henry. He didn't sleep very well. I can't soothe his nightmares about the monsters as well as you." She said and I smiled. "Where is the little man?" I asked. She frowned. "He's staying with my mother until the baby comes." She said. I nodded. We didn't really swim much. We just kinda snuggled in the water. "Come on babe. Let's go inside." I said. She nodded and we got out of the pool, grabbed our clothes and went in the house, grabbing the two towels Regina apparently brought down. We wrapped up in them and then I picked Regina up in my arms bridal style. She smiled and put the clothes in her lap and I carried her upstairs. When we got to our room, I laid her on the bed and grabbed the clothes off her stomach. She smiled and I took them to the hamper. Then, Regina's towel landed at my feet. I blushed and felt my member getting hard. I took my towel off and dried my hair a little before putting both of our towels in the hamper. "You know what's really sexy?" Regina asked as I turned around. "You?" I asked as I made my way to the bed. She smirked. "No. the fact that you have boobs and a penis." She said as I got on the bed beside her. I smiled and we cuddled together. "Mm. Can we please have sex? I really need you." She moaned and my dick hardened against her ass, causing her to moan. "Yes baby." I said and she laid on her back. I smiled and hovered over her. "No foreplay." She growled out. I smirked. "Yes ma'am." I said and immediately pushed in her soaked entrance. She moaned loudly and dug her nails into my shoulders, causing me to groan. "Fuck me hard." She commanded and I smirked. Before I moved my hips I looked at her stomach. I smiled and bent down pressing a gentle kiss on her stomach. I look up and saw her smiling. I smiled back and started thrusting into her slowly. I smirked at her soft moans. My beautiful woman sounding like an angel. I start to thrust harder and faster. My angel turned into a naughty one. "Fuck! Yes! Right there. Fuck me good." She moaned loud and grabbed my shoulders holding on for dear life. "Fuck baby, you're so tight," i groaned and went slightly faster. I know she wants me to be as fast as I usually am. But I don't want to hurt the baby in anyway. I'd hate for something to happen to him or her and it be my fault. I don't know how i could live with myself. I gently held onto her hips. I looked at her stomach and smiled softly before looking up at her. Her head is tilted back as she screams loud for me. Not as loud as usual but still loud. My baby is very vocal during sex. "Fuck! Oh my god! Make me cum baby." She screamed and i smirked. I made my thrust deeper making sure to hit her g-spot. I felt her nails dig in my shoulders. "Oh yessss... Yes. Yes. Fuck! Fuck! Oh my god! I'm gonna cum!" She started to scream. I groaned as i felt my orgasm almost on it's edge. I keep thrusting and i felt her nails drag down my back causing me to groan and hiss. Her back arched and she screamed my name as she came hard. I groaned and kept thrusting into her and just before i got on the edge I pulled out and it shot out on her stomach. She moaned as she looked down at her stomach. I froze. I didn't mean to do that. "I'm sorry baby. I didn't mean to do that I swear. I'll clean it up." I said but before i could stand up to get a wash cloth she grabbed my hand and was smiling. "Chill babe. It's kind of hot." She said. I blushed at her words. I watch her collect my cum with her fingers and lick it off. I groaned at the sight. When it was all gone and moaned softly. "Yummy." She said and looked at me and licked her lips. "Jesus woman." I said and smiled. I hovered over her and kissed her deeply. After kissing for a few minutes i laid next to her. She turned and faced me. "I love you," she said and smiled. I smiled back. "I love you too." I said and kissed her. She moaned in my mouth and kissed me back.

"So is now a good time to talk about.. you know... the thing?" I asked as we cuddled on the couch. Regina's in a baggy sweater and a thong and I'm in joggers and a sports bra. "Yes, dear. Now is a good time to talk about it." She mumbled. I nodded. "Graham called and explained everything you told him and told me how bad you felt. I didn't want to leave. I just.. my mother got overly upset when she was pregnant with our younger brother. Apparently it was really bad. Because it caused her to miscarry. She wasn't nearly as far along as me but it still scared me.." she started. "I didn't want to hurt the baby. So I left. It was the dumbest thing I've ever done because I missed you so much. As soon as you left the house I knew I needed you. But my mother insisted I stay. But believe me. I'm never going anywhere. Ever again." She said and turned around so she could look at me. I nodded. "I love you so much. I wanted to tell you I just... i didn't even want to go. I didn't know how to tell you. It was horrible." I said. She frowned and brushed a piece of my hair back. "What happened baby?" She asked softly. I bit my lip. "I... They told me that they were my only family and when I told them they weren't my family and I started to leave... the man shouted that they wanted a girl. And it just upset me because.. I struggle with myself." I mumbled. She frowned and brought a hand up, cupping my cheek. "My love, you are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. And that's what you are. A woman who just so happens to have a penis. And that just makes you even more beautiful, Emma. Okay? Don't listen to them. They're assholes who don't know what they missed out on." She said softly and I cracked a smile, tears in my eyes. "I love you so much." I whispered. She smiled and kissed me softly. "And I, you my love." She said and I smiled. This is where I'm supposed to be.