My life as a Teeenager

no point fighting

Being wheeled to the special baby unit was heartbreaking, i never imagined having to come to this department. all the way down the corridor i felt my lock on Jake's hand get tighter and his on mine

"are you ready?"Jake asked me

i sniffed up and nodded

being placed next to an incubator that held our baby girl was terrifying. i started to sob uncontrollably and Jake held me close to his chest.

"ill leave you two alone with your daughter" the midwife said while walking away

"this is my fault." he said while holding his sobs back

"no, no, no." i said while struggling to my feet, i was in so much pain with my stomach- well i did just have a c-section

i held Jake's face and his forehead fell to mine, "don't say that, its not your fault if i didn't drive away we wouldn't be here."

"if i wasn't unfaithful you wouldn't of drove away." he cried 

i had never seen Jake cry before so it was weird trying to comfort him but he was human after all, i lifted his head up and wiped his tears,

"i love you, i don't care what you did." i forgave him i didn't want to lose him i really wanted this to work, we were parents after all and we were mature then anyone else in our year at school so why not.

Jake helped me back into the chair and i watched as he sat down in a wooden chair next to me his lean, muscular body crouched over as he placed his hand into the incubator and his brown styled hair flopped out of style and his jaw was fixed while he spoke to our baby girl. 

"we still haven't chose her name?" i pointed out and smiled

"Lucy or Amelia" he asked those were the two names we chose but we just couldn't decide which one

"what about Amelia-Lucy Linfield" i smiled and he reached for my hand 

"yes, i like it." he kissed my forehead 

we sat for hours singing lullabies to Amelia and talking to her .

as i woke the next morning the room felt empty, i looked around and Jake wasn't with me i started to panic- but then realized he needs rest too so he must of gone home early hours this morning.

i climbed out of bed and made my way slowly to see Amelia, as i walked in i noticed a sleeping Jake in a chair next to her incubator

i tapped Jake awake  "Jake, go home get some rest and come back." i told him

"i don't want to leave." he said sleepily

"i know, but one of us need to look fresh and up to visitors." i smiled

"OK, ill be back soon." he stood and kissed the top of my hair "love you."

"love you too." i told him

i sat beside Amelia, holding her little hand and talking to her

"mummy loves you very much, so does daddy." i giggled to myself

someone placed there hand on my shoulder i turned my head to see my dad

"dad!" i struggled to my feat and my dad put his hands round me

"oh honey, what happened?" 

"i was driving along in the dark and i blinked my tears back and a lorry was coming towards me so i swerved, it went so fast from then on." i told him

he held me at arms reach

"why were you crying?" a voice behind my dad asked

"Jame's, what are you doing back?" my brother was staring at me wildly