Darkest Secret

labing-dalawa

tingin ko isa itong event, mukha pa nga'ng concert e, puno ng tao ang buong auditorium naka sarado pa ang pulang kurtina tanda na hindi pa nag sisimula ang palabas, napa-tanga ako ng may biglang sumigaw sa audience na nag pakabog ng todo sa dib-dib ko

"go.. go.. go.. Straffords'.. whooooo"

"is.. Ice, is this a concert?" nangangatog kong tanong sa anak ko

"yes mommy, watch it, they all good at stage, it was their last concert. papa I want to meet your friend, I want to have his signature." tatayo na sana ako ng biglang bumukas ang kurtina. there. kitang kita ng dalawa kong mata ang lalake na minsan kong minahal, yung lalakeng naging dahilan kung bakit ako mayroong Venice at Vaughn, the man behind every happiness and sorrow.

he was standing at the center of the stage as if he was just at home, his hair is a little bit messy, he looks like a god who just wake up minutes ago, bakas sa mukha nito ang lungkot ngunit may passion sa pag awit, gusto kong maiyak ng kuminang ang sing-sing sa daliri nito, saying that he was married, I saw how he fix his wrist watch,

"he still kept it" napatakip ako ng bibig, hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko ngayon. "anak, when was this happened?" baling  ko sa naka tutok na si Vaughn

"2 weeks ago mom" eto kaya ang dahilan kung bakit wala siya at hindi ma-contact ng lawyer ko?

**

"good evening everyone" Damon speak on microphone, Ethan started to strum his guitar in a slow melody

"whoooo go Straffords' " the crowd screem, halatang sikat na sikat ang banda nila sa dami ng fans, I remember way back then, isa ko sa mga fans na yan, gumagawa ng personalized banner para sa kanila, I never mind getting tired basta magawa ko yun. every time I was in their concert I make sure that Vien will see me when he looks at the crowd, pero bago pa ko maging isang fan, naging kabanda ko rin sila, hindi man umabot sa malakihan na concert pero sumingat ako dahil sa kanila.

i gulp when Vien spoke, "good evening ladies and gentlemen, this concert is dedicated to someone special to me, a girl who caught my attention since we are kids, A girl who has a big heart to understand everything, I became a jerk one day that caused of her leaving me, I should have done this before, I should have done this 7 years ago when wounds are still capable to cure by a single sorry and I love you, I know I am too late now, you had your life with your kids, and I'm not belong anymore" I saw how he wipe his tears, and heard how crowd fall for him more

"he's crying, maybe he really love the girl" my son eventually spoke out of nowhere, Troy rub my back and tried to stop me from crying

"but I hope, you will find forgiveness for me, please, I will give you what you want from me, just.. ahhh.. I'm sorry everyone, this wont take long" he turn around and tried to stay calm, this is the first time I saw him crying in front of the crowd, he already change, my Tristan have change.

pulang pula na ang mga mata nito ng humarap siyang muli... "sorry po sainyo, I get this chance to say sorry to her, sana naririnig niya, every song that I will sing is for you, My Queen te quiero lo siento mucho"

tuloy tuloy lang ang agos ng luha ko, wala na kong paki-alam kung pag tapos nito ay mag tanong ang kambal, sinenyasan ni Vien yung tatlo para mag-simula sa una nilang kanta, intro palang nito napa-hagulgol na ako.

I saw how my son stood up and went somewhere, my daughter was trying to ask me what's wrong but I can't find words to answer her.

**

Going back to the corner where I first saw you

Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move

Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand

Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am

hindi ko alam kung anong sinabi ni Troy sa dalawa para pumasok ito sa kwarto, Roy let me burst out in tears and never tried to stop me again

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man

I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do

How can I move on when I've been in love with you

Vien still manages to sing very well even he was crying, the boys try to catch his fallen notes to make the song more powerful and stay to its tune,

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl, oh whoa
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world

Maybe I'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
'Cause you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved

Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move

**

their concert is a blast,halos kalahati palang punong puno na ito ng emosyon, every song he sing is a story to to tell, sa awit niya dinadaan kung ano ang nararamdaman niya. when they are at the 2nd to the last song Ethan tap his shoulder to tell him na ito muna ang kakanta, he easily agreed and went to the back stage, maybe he will try to stop his emotions, masakit makita na ginagawa niya to, him degrading himself just for forgiveness, he said he will give what I want in return of forgiving him. my heart says I can forgive him, but my mind says I'm not yet ready to forget what he have done to me.

madaling mag-patawad kung puso lang ang susundin, ngunit may isip na hindi marunong makalimot sa lahat ng ala-ala, masaya man o masakit.