heartbreaker ➳ sequel to dms ( discontinued )

nine

*set after the dates because im a lazy bitch*

danielle

"which guy do you think you're going to start seeing soon?" za says laying across from me in my bed.

"to be honest," i started, "none. those guys were all either cocky , rude, annoying, or just plain not for me."

za sighed."dani, do you think you just don't want a new guy?" he said. "are you still hung up on justin? or jace?"

"jace, honestly was always more of a rebound from justin. but justin, he'll always have a special place in my heart. ill always love him, even though he'll always probably love hailey."

"what ever even happened between you two?" za asked. i had never even told my own friends what happened with justin and i. i didn't want to dwell on it.

"doesn't matter. it happened months ago, we're not going to dwell on it."

za shrugged.

"but hey," i said, "at least i have you, my best friend."

za laughed. "you don't get it, do you?"

"get exactly what?" i laughed.

"i didn't stay with you to be a butler for you, or to be your best friend. i stayed because i liked you, and always thought i had some sort of chance with you. " za let out out and took a deep breath.

i don't act like it's anything new, or have any surprise reaction to this because the simple way he is saying this so casually makes me realize. it's not a big deal. not a big deal at all. he liked me, and I liked him. just not in the -same- way he liked me in. at least i don't think so.

even though my love with justin was exciting and fast, and so,stiles even dangerous, and life altering , my love for za was kind of safe and fun. he was my best guy friend and i really appreciated it. maybe that's better.
"really?" i asked and he nodded.

i scooted towards him in the bed and laid a kiss on his lips. his first initial reaction was shock, but he regrouped and kissed me back.

after what seemed like a while, he broke the kiss, and looked at me in the eyes. "i don't want you to do this or to be with me because of what happened with justin. that's not how i want our relationship to be."

"i know," i said. "it's not like that.."

za chuckled and shook his head. "i would love to believe what you're saying but-"

i cut him off with another kiss. he kisses me bac, and we completely melt into it like it's what we've needed for a while.

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a bunch of you me to keep the book, so ive decided to keep it guys (: