stuck in the players love

trying to die

it's been two months and now Tony Allison and Ofelia don't even talk to me anymore they hang with Ricardo and Ernest. i'm now all alone my mom died and my dad started drinking last month and i had no one to tell. my dad's no abusive and hits me everyday so now i'm used to it. now when people at school hit me all they do is add scars but it doesn't hurt anymore i can't feel anything anymore. an i don't think i can live with my self that's why i'm here in an ally with a knife in my left hand and a half empty bottle of gin. it was new i just got it and i'm almost done with it. before i left my house i wrought a note put some clothes out that i want to be put in and left. as i finished the bottle i started to cry

"WEAK.....WHORE....SLUT.....WORTHLESS......ECT" i said all the things i was called by people while i was crying. i put the knife to my wrist and started to cut it felt good to feel the knife run across my arm. then all of a sudden i felt a hand grab my left arm and pull it away from my right arm. i started to freak out.

"no no no let me go please i wanna die let me die."

"no you mean so much to me i always liked you, you know i just never asked you out because i was scared."

i thought it was Ricardo but i knew it wasn't he was at a party with his girlfriend. i looked up to see that it was Aaron. i couldn't believe him did he just say he loved me.......oh well i have nothing else to lose y not date him.

"rea..." i was cut off by his lips pressing agenst mine the kiss was so pashinat and full of love. at first i was shocked and then i kissed him back. i was upset when he pulled away.

AARON- lets get you cleaned up and home okay

AZUSA- okay

he cleaned up my wrist and drove me home i kissed him good bye and went inside. my dad was in my room crying i wounder why he never cried over me sense mom died. i was in and he hears me and turns around i thought he was gonna hit me but he hugged me.

DAD- i thought you were dead i thought i was gonna be alone you are my only baby girl and i can't stand to lose you too.i wont lose you

i hugged him back and was happy to see that my dad still loved me. after awhile he left the room and i went to bed