Power Within II: Bound by a Promise(Under revision)

XII: CONFUSION

Naisuntok ko na lang ang kamao sa salaming pinto sa harap ko. What's happening to me?! I'm acting like somebody else, and yet I feel that this is still me!

Paulit-ulit ko pang sinuntok ang salamin na unti-unti nang nagkakalamat.

“Ser, a-ano hong nangyayari sa— ” Dali-daling lumapit sa 'kin ang maid pagkapasok sa kuwarto nang makita ang duguan kong kamao.

Bago niya pa 'ko mahawakan, naisandal ko na siya sa pader. “Isa ka pa!” Mahigpit kong pinisil ang magkabilang balikat niya. “You're also causing me confusion!” Kasama ng takot sa mga mata niya, napangiwi siya sa sakit nang pagkakahawak ko sa kanya. “Simula ng dumating ka nagulo ang takbo ng isip ko. Even my dreams went crazy when you arrived. Now, I don't know who I am!” Masisiraan na yata ako dahil sa mga nangyayari sa 'kin.

“You are still you, even if you act differently at times. Nothing can change the fact that you are you.” She gently touched my face that startled me. The soft gaze from her eyes is telling me that she knows what's happening to me. “Maybe this is the right time to tell you about the other part of you,” may pag-aalala niyang dugtong.

She took a stick out of her pocket. With just a whisk her clothes changed into a robe and her hair turned red.

“Y-you're the girl who saved me. The girl with the scarlet eyes. The same girl in my dreams.” Saka lang parang unti-unting luminaw ang itsura ng babaeng naalala ko sa panaginip. Hindi ako makapaniwalang hindi ko siya namukhaan agad noon. “You're Adria.”

“The dreams that you've been having, it was me who triggered them.” Muling napuno ng pagkalito ang utak ko. “Pero hindi 'yon mga ordinaryong panaginip. They're all your memories—from your previous life, Cyan.”

What she's saying isn't helping me in any way. My head's bursting from all the confusion and uncertainty. Everything doesn't make any sense.

“Do you recall the only dream that kept on rewinding over and over?” she continued, talking about the dream where I was somewhat dying. “That really happened twenty years ago in the world where you and I belong.”

“What world?!”

“The land of Amystrea where you were born and known as a prince.”

Nasapo ko ang ulong kanina pa walang tigil sa pagkirot. Napailing ako nang pauli-ulit. “Don't expect me to believe the insanity you're blabbering!”

Nasaktan siya sa sinabi ko. The pained expression on her face tells me so.

I did experience unexplainable situations, but that doesn't prove that everything else she's saying is true.

“Cyan, hayaan mo 'kong sabihin lahat—”

“Don't come near me!” Napigil nang pagsigaw ko ang akma niyang paglapit sa 'kin. “And don't call me by that name. My name is Khaos!”

She's the cause of everything that went wrong! Sinadya niya lahat  para guluhin ang isip ko at maniwala sa lahat ng kasinungalingan na sasabihin niya. She's manipulating me from the start.

“I'm not some imaginary being that you're trying to force my brain into believing!”

“Maniwala ka sa 'kin, Cyan.” Nagsimula siyang lumuha. “Nandito ako para tuparin ang ipinangako ko sa 'yo noong namatay ka.”

“Shut up and go back alone to that fucking world you're talking about!” Akmang bubuksan ko na ang pinto nang maramdaman ko ang paghawak niya sa palad ko.

“Hear me out, please,” she pleaded crying.

Somewhere in my heart something is saying that I should believe her, but my brain is refusing to accept what she's trying to tell me. This is all part of her manipulation.

Marahas binitiwan ang kamay niya. Mas pinili kong pakinggan ang utak ko. “Leave!” Nilisan ko ang kuwarto at pabalagbag siyang sinaraduhan ng pinto.

I was running down the stairs when my phone rang. “Khaos, we found the guy who wanted to kidnap you. I know that you're not interested, but I think you have the right to know.” I heard Gerard say after I answered the call.

“I'm on my way!”

“Nice! I'll send you the address meet us there!” Nagmamadali niyang sabi bago nawala sa kabilang linya.

This is how things should be. This what I've always been doing. This is what I am, not some incompetent moron who pretends to be someone he's not!