Fated Since Monday

제 3 회 // Third

Gary's POV

I drove my car fast—I wanted to be home so badly. Even if I always feel comfortable at Ji Hyo's, well, I guess I have to drag my feet away from her place starting right now.

I must've gone out of my mind. My plans to cheer her up became a disastrous confession instead. I even spoke something else before stepping out of her place. It might feel like a dramatic effect, but no, it came straight from the bottom of my heart. It was something I tried not to say for so long. However tonight, my walls crumbled.

"Ji Hyo ya, saranghae(I love you)."

I wonder if she heard it. And if she did, what will her reaction be? I wish I knew. But it's getting late and all I care about now is getting home and a nice warm shower to ease my mind before I finally hit my bed.

*****

On the day Ep. 291 was aired, I went to Haha's place and apparently Kwang Soo was there too. Byul, Haha's wife, was going out with Dream, their child, so it was literally the three of us grown men alone inside the residence.

"Today, all Koreans watching Ep. 291 will face the truth, terrible or not," announced Haha, as if we hadn't already known it.

I let out a small laugh. "Yeah, they sure will."

"Oh, it's starting," Kwang Soo announced too.

We sat in silence as we watched the episode progress. When it reached our—Ji Hyo's and my—part, I tensed as if I wasn't prepared for this. Truth be told, I never am prepared for this, and I don't think I will ever be prepared. Episoe 291 didn't appear 'Running Man' for me ; it appeared more like a talk show. However, that is not the thing that made me tense.

It is how the whole scene stings.

"This is AWKWARD!" Both Haha and Kwang Soo teased me. Oh the very good pals I have...

I hit both of them respectively. "Shh."

Haha is more obedient. He chuckle before eventually returning his focus to the TV in front of us. Well, as for Kwang Soo..he never lets go of his teasing habit.

"Ooh, hyung wants to focus on their date."

"Ya, Lee Kwang Soo," I tried to silence him with my glare. It didn't totally work, but at least his teases minimized as the episode flows.

At the end of the episode, the three of us went to Haha's restaurant to eat. I rarely have my dinner with specific members. Usually, it would be the whole members and also the crew and the staffs. Among all my fellow co-workers, Haha is the one I share most of my dinnertime with. As you know, I have been close to him since the day I joined Running Man. As for Kwang Soo.. Let's just say it happens less often. To cut a long story short, this time is my first time having dinner together with only the two of them after that episode was filmed.

We talked and laughed, but part of me really wanted to drink the night away. I had promised myself I won't indulge in too much alcohol, but tonight should be an exception. Millions of things run through my mind. The most disturbing thought is the one about me and Ji Hyo. The wall—her wall—that I had tried so hard to break down now has to be reconstructed. We have to go back to our awkward phase. It aches me so bad... I wanted to be numb. So I grabbed the bottle of soju and without further thoughts, gulped down the liquid.

"Hyung, seriously! Stop it," Kwang Soo's protest stopped me from drinking more.

"Ya, Kang Gary. Are you out of your mind? You will get drunk!" Haha voiced his disagreement.

I chuckled and shook my head, meaning to say that I won't get drunk. As I tried to drink again, Haha snatched the bottle from me. Kwang Soo offered me a glass of water instead. Both of them are looking at me, their eyes full of concern.

"Ya, I think we should get you home," Haha then turned to look at Kwang Soo, perhaps discussing about sending me home. I drank the water and heaved a sigh. What was I thinking a few minutes ago? Why did I do what I do?

Oh right. Because of my feelings for a girl I could've been together with.

***

Eventually, it was Kwang Soo who drove me home. Throughout the drive, we kept silent, or more like he silenced me because he thought I was still 'drunk', or 'in shock', or whatever term you will use to describe someone who had no idea what he or she just did. He put some calm-sounding music, which he guessed would soothe me. The gratitude I feel for him is undescribable.

"Kwang Soo ya."

He looked at me for a split second before focusing on the road again. "Wae again, hyung?"

"What I did earlier was too impulsive, wasn't it?"

He stayed silent, maybe contemplating what he should say. The red light flashed and he stopped the car, fidgeting.

"You don't have to answer me. I know it myself, though. It was a very bad behavior," I paused for a chuckle, then continued, "Funny what love can make you do."

"Hyung, it's alright. We understand you're not feeling good about this thing. It's just.. Don't do stupid things, especially not drinking the night away and driving yourself home."

I glanced back at the car and waved him goodbye before finally stepping inside. He might be the youngest, but he is so caring towards everyone. No wonder Ji Hyo is the closest with him. Who wouldn't want to be around someone as kind as that? While me... I had been a bad boy, although I've turned a new leaf. I do not wish to impress everybody anymore. Since meeting Ji Hyo, all I want is to get her attention. Now that I've got it, I want everyone to know that we're a thing. But we never are a real thing. We're just a 'some', but now there's nothing left, not even bits of it.

***

Days passed, and although it still hurts, I am starting to get used to this. Avoiding Ji Hyo is now officially in my to-do-list. Whenever we film, we always try our best not to spark anyone's attention. Sure enough, the hype soon started to subside. Almany fans still crave for our interactions, but still we can not do anything—for the sake of the show.

For the sake of Ji Hyo.

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Hellooo!
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This chapter might not be much but I hope it satisfies your craving.

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