"Darling you're going to be late for your first day at school" my mom screamed up the stairs
"I don't feel too good" I screamed back
My mom knew when I was lying she always did, it started from when I first became ill. I missed weeks off school and that's when she got suspicious. I remember the day she first found out, her face when she saw the deep self inflicted cuts. She knew she wasn't to blame but to this day she still did.
"Hun, it's a new school, you have to make and effort"
I rolled out of bed and my toes grasped the grass like rug. In the corner there was a small blood stain, it felt like yesterday when I first ever took the shiny piece of metal to my skin, I never cried when I did it, I never screamed. I just cut myself and my body felt like it was going to explode with pleasure as I watched each delicate drop of blood roll down my arm and hit the floor. It was satisfying but as well as that it felt good, it took away all the pain. Every cut was like a tiny release of pleasure.
It felt good, but that's in the last and I'm 45 days clean now 🌝.
I could hear footsteps coming up stairs so I quickly stood up and put on my dressing gown. And my door opened it squeaked.
"Please Alex. For me" my mom begged
She really wanted me to go back to school. Before I stopped going, I was getting A's and B's but I guess I'm most probably working and grade D's and E's
I laugh and then reply "fine mom, I'll try it out for one day, and if I don't like it I'm not going back"
My mother jumped up from the edge of
My bed fast and hugged me "Thank you Alex. Thank you"
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I kissed her battle scars {Trigger warning}
Teen FictionWhen Alex moves from Texas to England she tried to keep her head down, when she meets charlee they battle through her past and become closer
