Scarred Hearts {NCIS}

Chapter 10

Ziva's POV.

*nightmares*

I was alone, In this apartment I was lost and confused. I think I was downtown. it was really dark in the room I was in, I tried to stand up but I was chained to the floor. I panicked, I start to pull and yank on the chains, soon the lights flash on and I see Salem in front of me. I shake my head no

"Your, your dead" I trembled

His laughs full the air,

"I'm going to make your life hell Ziva" he taunted me

Then he turned to a closet like area behind him, he opened it and dragged out my only love, Tony.

"Don't hurt him" I cry out

Salem smirks at me.

I'm now desperately yanking the metal chain,

"P-pl-please, I love him" I'm begging Salem.

He dragged tony in front of me closer, he was still a little Conscience

"I'll be back David" he hissed

I grabbed Tonys hand

I took a moment I was crying so hard I couldn't breathe

"T-Tony, I, I love you." I finally said

"I love you too Zi" he choked

Then Salem walked back in, looked at me and started smiling,

He took Tony from my hands and held him against the wall, he grabbed a knife in his back pocket.

Salem turned to me,

"This is my revenge," he whispered in my ear.

He walked to tony and held it to his neck, he slowly dragged it along his neck, Tonys blood dripped down his shirt already. I was trying with my whole life to save Him, I couldn't get out.

Salem then took the knife and stabbed Tony in the stomach, I watched my only life die. I didn't care anymore, Salem could kill me.

*end of dream*

I shot up in bed and I had tears pouring from my eyes in my sleep,

"Tony, tony, tony" I started crying.

He sat up,

"Zi I'm here I'm okay what's wrong?" tony asked me right away

I explained the whole thing to him, I calmed down after I talked with him,

"Oh Zi," he began "I'm right here and I'm not going to go anywhere"

He then leaned over and kissed me,

Why is he just perfect? he didn't get mad at me screaming his name at 2 am. most people would be pissed. I started smiling again,

"Let's go back to bed my love" he told me.

This time he grabbed my shoulder and held me in his arms,

"To keep my lady safe" he whispered in my ear

I kept a real smile on my face the whole time I slept. I didn't have another nightmare.

*the next morning*

After we woke up and took showers, tony started cooking breakfast, I decided to clean up the house a little,

I kept feeling like Tony was seeing into my head where I was plotting how to get out of eating.

"It's ready Zi" Tony called out about twenty minutes later

"I'm not hungry" I tried first

He just walked over to me at that point,

"Yes you are Zi, you haven't eaten since lunch yesterday" he stated

"No i'm not!" I begin to defend

He closed his eyes,

"Tell me the truth, when was the last time you ate." he begged me

I decided just to tell him I can't lie to Tony,

"Not for awhile, i would say 4 or 5 days" I tell him

I could almost hear his heart drop at that moment,

"You are eating right now" he says calmly,

"I can't! You know that you can have a girl any better looking then me, I can't lose you, and if I weigh to much, you will hate me" I yell

start to feel the urge to cut more couldn't hold back the tears, I start crying. I grasp my phone. I need to be able to breath I can't right now,
I walk into the bathroom and grab a blade.

"Ziva open the door" he yells hitting the door

"No! I need to be happy!" I cry out

I cut at least ten more lines on my wrists, the blood was running down my arm. Tony then breaks in, he saw my cuts and grabs my wrists, he just stood their looking down at them. He dropped my arm and walked out,

I was in there at least ten minutes hitting my head agonist the wall, then I walked out and Tony wasn't there, he hates me he's gone.