My Brother My Mate

36. A New Someone

(Media picture of Violet)

Original Published Date: 27 June 2016

-edited-

Estelle

I've noticed that people keep saying, life is a game. But life... its not a game. More like a life or death obstacle course. I almost died, I did die. But I came back. Why?

I ask myself these horrid one worded question, and I keep asking questions I don't want the answer to, but again... I ask.

I don't want to second guest my life, but I don't understand how after all my deaths im still alive. I like living, but I don't like dying.

Something is planned for me. Because if the Goddess didn't have a plan for me, why am I still here? Like my life is nothing but series of heartbreak so what could possibly be haunting me this way. Im still living, breathing, and I don't want to.

I feel like im in this endless loop until something else happens, but what will change? How would this change affect me?

"Are you ok?" James asks. I jump out of my thoughts.

"Im fine, James, just leave me alone."

"That, I can't do."

"What can't you do James?" I ask starting to take a little interest into things.

"We're mates, Estelle, and you constantly push me away from you. Why?" He asks.

"I don't know it just seems a lot easier. I don't like my life as a werewolf. I love how it feels to be faster stronger, but I hate how it feels when I'm hurt, when I lose the feeling of trust." I start to cry.

"I don't understand, Essy."

"I don't either." I began crying. Then I start laughing when I see the confused look on his face.

"Let's get you home."

"I thought we were home." I say curiously.

"We're still in the hospital." James corrects me.

"It was a joke and you didn't get it."

"Then explain."

"Home is where I am with you." He kissed my forehead.

"I love you too."

Victor

I left the hospital about half an hour ago. Kyle said he had something he wanted to show me, but I'm skeptical about where and why. Those are the scariest questions you could ask Kyle. You're gonna fear the answers or be angry with it. That's why its better not to ask. Knowing me, I'm gonna ask anyway.

"Where are we going Kyle?" I ask, a little reluctant.

"Where? Are you sure you wanna know?"

"No... but you're gonna tell me anyway." I say.

"Ok. We're going to a women's shelter." He says blankly.

"Why the hell are we, guys, going to a woman's shelter?" I just realized I asked why, and I kind of scared for the answered.

"Because there's someone there I want you to meet. Not everything I do is disgusting or sexual,  I can be a good guy." He says giving himself a half smile.

"You are aware the murderous serial killer Chucky, was supposed to be a good guy considering he was a good guy doll." I tell him upfront.

"Do I look like a possessed doll to you?"