Silently Falling

Chapter Five (Edited 8/30/2020)

"Raine...I can already tell this is going to be phenomenal. I wish you would, like, perform it or something."

I raise a brow, "That would be a problem considering my lack of a voice."

"I meant you do the instrumental portion and then you get someone else to actually sing it."

She knows why I like having songs all to myself. The songs I make and play for our chorus students become the school's songs; they're no longer my own. Besides I don't even make them for myself, I make them strictly for the school. I like knowing that the songs I make and play on my own account will always belong to me. If they belong to me, somehow I believe they belong to my mom as well. When I finish a song, I don't know...I feel like it's like a prayer to her. Something between the two of us.

But... it would be nice to have someone able to sing them. I have Alyse, but as much as she likes my songs, she pushes performing them for others too much. I don't write music to be published or get put in the spotlight. I do it to feel close to my mother.

Once Music ends, I head to AP US History and greet the boys. Class goes down without much interesting happen, aside from Toby filling Gray and Tyler in on his 'night of fun' which I tune out of. While they discuss details I most definitely do not want to hear, my mind trails around until it ends up on West.

He has sparked quite the uproar at school. Every day I hear whispers about him circulating throughout the halls. I want to say that his presence hasn't gotten to me, and that to me he's just another newcomer, but I can't lie to myself. West is potentially one of the most interesting people we've had at this school, and that was true before I met him. But now that I've talked to him, he's even more prominent in my thoughts than I'd like to admit.

"Raine, you coming? The bell just rang, it's time for lunch."

I lightly shake my head and blink a few times, blushing as I realize I was staring blankly at the table while deep in thought. Focusing on Toby's slightly worried face, I quickly smile at him and nod.

"Sorry, I zoned out."

Tyler reaches his hand out to me with a smile, gently pulling me up and handing me my backpack. We all walk down the hall and to lunch, greeting Alyse at her locker on the way. The line for food goes quick and soon we are all sitting down at our table. Within seconds, Tyler's eyes are stuck to my food with a longing desire; my fries in particular.

"Tyler, are you falling in love with my fries?"

He reads my hands, for a moment or two eyes widening until I finish signing the whole sentence. He laughs, reaching his hand out to steal one but I'm quick to slap it away with a silent guffaw.

"Come on Raine, just one fry?" He begs, giving me his best puppy dog eyes.

I send him an incredulous look. He keeps up his facade for a few more seconds before dropping his expression into a scowl. I smile and begin to eat my food; all it takes is a look.

"Fine. But you aren't getting my extra cookie then." He mumbles, biting his sandwich.

I stop mid bite and look over at him, signing with one hand. "Extra cookie?"

"Momma Myers packed an extra."

Freaking yes.