The agony of loving another
Is akin to that of reading a book
I had long admired that boy from afar
Begging for bravery to make that first step
Just as I glanced longingly at that book on the shelf
Promising to find the time one day
I found the courage and succumbed to my desire
And marvelled at the sight of him in the flesh
Just as I grasped the leather book tightly in my hand
Becoming thirsty for more, more, more
I admired the boy's grace
And came to believe he was mine
Just as I caressed the gorgeous cover
With gentle touches and warm smiles
Suddenly he opened up to me
Revealing a little bit more
And I knew that he was special
Because I was the first he told
Like the author's dedication
To their mother or their neice
That little touch made him special
And pulled at my heartstrings
Then one day he let me explore
The warmth and tenderness of his soul
He swore on his life to love me
Just as I loved him
Uncovering the facets of his beauty
Like the way his lip tembled when he cried
Or why he hated confined spaces
Unless I was there to take his hand
As I turned each page in that volume
I fell deeper into this crafted world
It gave me hope and endless promises
That I would never be in life alone
The words brought immense comfort
And I was not embarrassed to cry
Because I trusted that space with my deep secrets
And vowed to remember their story
An accidental slip of misogyny
Then the raising of his hand
I heard the venom in his voice
And crumbled in the pain
All these little things were discovered
And I saw him as a whole
Just as I finally saw through
Those deceiving marketing strategies
A boy held my hand
A book was on my shelf
It was a façade for those around me
Who swore he was like everyone else
I saw him again last fortnight
In the hands of a new lover
I recalled that I had loved him
But could not remember why
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ESTÁS LEYENDO
Poetry
PoesíaI wrote the first draft of this poem on January 2014. I found it buried in my hard drive, and I wanted to share it with you. This poem reflects a dark time in my life, but it was a damn good lesson to learn. Please be kind - poetry isn't my thing, a...