Okay then let me explain what the hell anorexia is its not just about being skinny its about self-control and calorie counting and exercising and this is a endless pit of self hatred yes my goal is to be 99 skinny but in he end the number on the scale aren't all that matters it doesn't matter how much weight i lose because i will ever be skinny enough! Missing a second of workout would be the end of the world for me, eating 10 extra calories would absolutely kill me! Food is my enemy food will make me fatter. This disorder is hell i never wanted to be this way! Eating disorders aren't a choice. I never asked for this. Anorexia is not a lifestyle, or a diet or anything a pro-ana website might romanticize it as. Its a fucking mental illness thats making me go insane.
JE LEEST
Words unspoken
PoetryHeres to everything i didnt say. I kept it in and it hurt me every second of everyday that i didnt tell anyone. I hope i can help someone
