Not what I expected when I moved to LA ( Sawyer, Joey, and Tyler )

9:What am I going to do!?

Oh crap.. no no no no! This can't be happening. I looked down at the phone and read the text over, and over, and over.. but no matter how much I tried, the text never went away. I was screwed. I crossed my feet and locked them together, clentching my phone with all I had in me.

Sawyer spoke up, obviously conserned... was it showing?

" Are you okay..?" He asked and I barely heard him. Everything in my head was so loud that I couldn't hear him. I looked up and smiled, pretending I was alright.

" Oh yeah. Just some.. interesting news. No worries!" I said with a big, fake smile plastered across my face. 

" Oh.. alright..." He said and before he could open his mouth again the food was here. I didn't feel like eating, but he would know something was up if I skipped eating. The butterflies in my stomach were filling me up.

I looked down in discust, but looked back up with that incredibly good, fake smile again. I said " Yum!" and picked up my fork, eating my pasta.

Sawyer seemed to discard what had happened a few seconds ago and I was so glad. What was I going to do? I didn't like 'IT' anymore. That is why IT is my ex and why IT is a dumb idiot! 

He made me feel special and all then took it all out of me. My happiness, love, and any emotion I had left to give. Gone. 

He said he loved me. I loved him.. I still do. Once you love someone you don't just get over it. Theres still something in your heart that says you still do. No matter how much you argue with that voice, it always wins.

My heart was beating rapidly and I set my fork down. I was sick. I wanted to explode everywhere. Then I wouldn't have to see IT ever again. I took a big breath and then picked my fork up again and ate the food that I wish I didn't have to eat.

" So how was your day?" Sawyer said and I almost jumped. I looked up and said 

"Oh yeah. Totally okay. Hmmhm. It was great." He made a quizical face and then opened his mouth to talk again.

" Oh good.." He said and took a bite of his food. I took a sip of water, hoping to calm down a bit and took another deep breath. 

Now would be a good time to run away, right? That seemed like the best thing to do at the time. Run away to another state.... or country and never come back.  Don't tell anyone. Get a new phone, new car, and a new name.

I could even cut my hair like I've wanted to do for a while.. I would be free to do whatever. No boys controling my life. Nobody controling my life but me. 

I imagined everything that I would do and realized Sawyer was talking again.

" Ready?" He asked me as the waitress walked away with the check. Crap. WE just went though an entire date and barely talked. Ugh. This was a horrible time.

" Yeah.. sorry about all of this" I said appologetically

" Oh no.. Its fine!" He said and we stood up and left. 

I got home after hugging Sawyer goodbye and ran to my room and threw myself under my covers. what will I tell him? IT.  I guess I'll figure that out tomorrow morning..

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