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----------------------------------- (your name) Y/N pov DONT PLAY SONG TILL TOLD TO
BEEP BEEP BEEP!
I hear as my alarm goes off, I groan and roll out of bed making my way to the clock on the dresser. I keep my alarm clock far away from my bed so no matter what I have to get up to turn it off. After the obnoxious beeping turns off I go and grab clothes to get in the shower, I walk in beginning to undress attempting to avoid the mirror. I can't stand seeing the cuts and burns on my arms and upper thighs. Why did I have to be like this... Why couldn't I be a normal 19 year old who had a self esteem as high as a mountain. It wasn't like that though, I was just my little weak self who was barely living. I even have to fake a smile on YouTube. It was torture.
I get in the shower after shuffling my Pandora music playlist. One of my favorite songs called break the distance by Ashton Edminister came on and I sing along, I like it a lot because it gives me hope I'll still meet the person who inspired me to make YouTube videos, and I am so proud of him for having a business and a family thought I don't know much about them I haven't caught up on his videos yet after becoming so popular on the Internet. Anyway, his name was Skydoesminecraft, my inspiration.
(PLAY SONG NOW)
[Verse] If I had a chance I would take it faster than a heartbeat If I caught a glance, I would run to you like nobody was watching But it's so hard to get to you When you see the sun, I see the moon
[Chorus] Buckets of water, millions of clouds Miles of road just to get where you are Oh I wish, it wasn't so far... Thousands of dollars just to be near Countless thoughts of you being here Oh I wish, it wasn't so hard But maybe one day we can– Break the Distance
[Verse] I know it's hard, For everyone to understand it But you're in my heart, Though it feels like we got stranded And I wish I could get to you See you face to face Without a screen cutting through
[Chorus] Buckets of water, millions of clouds Miles of road just to get where you are Oh I wish, it wasn't so far... Thousands of dollars just to be near Countless thoughts of you being here Oh I wish, it wasn't so hard But maybe one day we can– Break the Distance
[Bridge] x2 Clouds will you please help me out I need to go and see them now Pick me up, off my feet I know that it's crazy I am ready with my suitcase by me
[Chorus] Buckets of water, millions of clouds Miles of road just to get where you are Oh I wish, it wasn't so far... Thousands of dollars just to be near Countless thoughts of you being here Oh I wish, it wasn't so hard But maybe one day we can– Break the distance
(Song is over)
After that song ends 3 more hours worth of songs play while I think about my 10 million or so fans who think I'm so happy. I have a reputation for being one of the happiest people on YouTube but I'm really not. I shed a tear as I think about how I'm "letting them down" and next thing I knew I was sobbing. I just wasn't ready to tell them. I get out of the shower after 3 hours of thinking And decided to make a vlog.
"Hey guys (Y/N) aka (yt/c/n) here and today I'm doing something a little different from my gaming videos"
I say cheerfully smiling at the camera.
"I'm going to a baseball game in about in hour so I wanted to make this vlog to fill you in on what's been happening, okay so I know what you're all thinking. (Y/N)? Where have the daily videos been the last week?"
I say in my 'viewer impression voice'
"Well as you all know I live in California at the moment" (Just pretend, even if you don't) "And I decided to make the decision to move to Washington after pax! So anyway I've been looking at houses online and planning things with the realtor and I found a house! I'm actually going to check it out in person in the next few weeks!"
I fake a smile and continue on.
"So anyways guys I hope you enjoyed this video make sure to leave a like and comment questions Or whatever your heart desires. If it's not rude I'll do my best to respond, anyway I love you guys remember you are B-E-A-U-tiful and have a nice day goodbyyyyyyyeeee!"
I say quickly as my voice gets higher pitched with every word. Lastly I wink at the camera then turn it off. I'll download it to my computer and edit it later. I prefer editing but I love making videos to so I do both.
"OH CRAP!" I shout to myself zooming out of my thoughts.
I forgot that I had to get ready for the game in a half an hour! As I'm getting dressed (picture above of your outfit) I notice a blood streak going down my arm. I had reopened a few of my cuts. I clean myself up curling my (H/C) hair and getting into my car driving off soon after.
Hello, I hope you enjoyed this chapter! (if anyone even read it)
