Everything But Sane

Chapter 1: Meet Nova

Nova's P.O.V
"Boom, Checkmate!... Nova are you okay because your moves have been kinda sloppy."

I looked up to see Mia's blonde hair swiping her cheeck slightly.. I smiled internally at how radient she was all the time.. even being in an asylum and all..

"Oh it's nothing I'm just thinking about this whole new school thing.."

Her cheery smile quickly turned into a sad one.. she knew what happened to me.

"Nova, dont worry about that.. I doubt it'll be like last year.. nobody knows what happened or who you are so you can do anything different.. its like a cheat to a new identity. You can be 'Nica the straight A student, 'Nica the fun girl everyone likes an adores 'Nica the girl with alot of cool friends plus a boy with a smokin hot..."

"Okayy thats enough.. I think i get the point, Too much details Mia. Besides I cant be any of those.."

Her brows furrowed and knitted together as she tried to figure out the knowledge behind my statement.... All of a sudden her eyes widened and she went on a panic spree.

"Oh no im so sorry.. I forgot me and... your m.. i mean Christina were the only ones who called you that..After the.."

"Dont.. its ok.. I'm gona actually have people call me by my first name, not my middle name.. its reserved just for you "

"I would say that too except no one who knows me would call me Olivia.. I'll just let you stick with calling me mia, or if you want, Amilya. "

"Well Hello there Amilya.. my name is Veronica... wanna be best friends?"

"Why thank you Veronica.. I would love to!"

We both break into a fit of laughter.

"Soo are you concerned about any boys?"

Immediately my giggling stopped. I didnt really focus on boys or relationships.. Just my schoolwork mostly.

"Umm... No.. Mia you know how i am.

Her expression became bland.
" oh of course.. Same old boring Nova who doesnt do anything fun and always wa.."

I immediately get a pained expression at these words. She see's the look on my face and surges to explain.

" OH MY GOSH BESTFRIEND I WAS BEING SARCASTIC.. PRETTY PLEAASE WITH CHOCOLATE ON TOP DONT BE MAD AT ME.. I WAS JU"

"Hey its okay.. But what you're saying isnt wrong.

"Hey dont be like that... I was just joking you know.. Lets forget about it.. Besides, i know you dont need a boyfriend to be happy."

I smile at her and start examining her face.. All of a sudden I discover scratch marks on her neck.. I get worried when she's hurt so this made me freak out.

"AMILYA OLIVIA WILLIAMS"
She sees that I've seen her scratches and tries to cover them up by sinking down in her wheelchair.
Her voice is a mere whisper.

"Dont say anything.."

All of a sudden a short nurse dressed in blue scrubs comes over..
"Miss Williams it's time for your medicine."

Mia looks at her like she just lost her marbles..
"Suzy, I think you're wrong.. I stopped having the dreams.. I .. I swear"

"No you didnt.. That was a different patient"

"You have even more scratches on your neck than last time.. The dreams are coming back."
Suzy puts on a pity face
"Honey you were screaming and scratching words onto the wall... in your sleep.. you kept having the dream... you aren't out of shock yet Amilya you need to understand that."

I hated seeing tears in my best friend's eyes..it made me want to feel pain for both me and her.
I reach out to hold her hand.

"Hey, its ok.. I'll come back tomorrow and we can finish talking.. I'll bring your favorite type of pudding and we can go up to your room and just watch tv.. then I'll kick your ass in chess like im supposed to. Deal?"

Amilya wiped her teary eyes and said the best word she's said all day.

"Deal"

As i pack up my things to go.. i mouth see you later asswipe .. and she mouths back, see you later fucktard.

Gosh, i love my bestfriend❤

I got in the elevator waving at her one last time and pressing the button to the first floor.. As i exited the building I got weird looks from people all on the street. Thats when I realized I had my sleeves pulled up since I showed Mia where I wanted the tattoo of an infinity sign on my wrists. I had cuts all along my arms and the scars looked like stripes from how much i keep cutting. I quickly pulled down my sleeves and put my hoodie over my head as I made my way through the streets.

I spotted the bus i needed to take, got on, and handed the driver my pass as i sat down in a seat....

**1 hour later**
I closed the door behind me as I made my way into the kitchen.. i heard some indistinct chatter as i turned the corner.

I looked up and saw a lady in a grey suit holding a briefcase..

Aunt maggie was just sitting down and she had on a face that says i know your gonna get mad..

"Aunt maggie, whats going on??"

"Oh, honey.. this is uh.. um this Candace, she's a social worker.. she wants to talk about... Catherine."

I feel dizzy.
My heart is racing
My palms start getting sweaty.
Anything but her.. the woman who potentially tried to kill me.. the woman who caused alot of the pain i've felt over these past years.. One of the reasons i wanted to kill mysef.. Catherine.

I wiped my palms on my jeans and put on the bitterest face i could .. pairing it with the most monotone expression.

"What does she want."

Candace starts to see why I'm upset .. she's getting nervous.. i can sense it.

"Oh um.. she wants to file a lawsuit so u can come live with her.."

I race into my room and lock the door... i then walk into the bathroom using the door in my room and i lock that door.
Maggie cant get in.

I rummage through my drawers and find my favorite razor.. the sharpest. I strip down.. run the bath and then walk into the bathroom with my razor..

As i step into the tub.. the water feels heavenly on my skin.. i wish i could stay here all day... but i cant.

I grab my razor and sink down in the tub, examining my previous marks and cuts.. i saw the words supernova put into my skin.. i remember because it's the first one i carved.

I take my razor and find a fresh patch of skin to mark.. i start drawing a design like flames.. going up and down my wrists and my arm.. i watch the blood rush out of my hand.. i quickly force them under the lukewarm water.. they immediately started burning.. i heard loud consistent knock on the door.. it was maggie..

Suddenly I started seeing black spots appear in my vision.. They kept on getting bigger and bigger..

In my hazed state i managed to realize i really fucked up because this hadnt happened the other times.

I slowly tried to push myself up and out of the tub.. I felt a sharp strike of pain rush through my body..

I was determined to get up so I pushed myself up, spilling blood from all my wounds.

I crawled out of the tub and reached for the handle.. It slightly moved but that wasnt enough to open the door.

I felt more hot tears fall freely over my face and i wanted to give up so badly..

With the last possible ounce of faith and blood in my body.. I turned the knob right before i slipped into complete darkness.
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