The Mute Button

Chapter 5-Jr.Crushes

My jr. school years grades 4, 5 &6.

~~Grade 4~~

I met a boy! his name is Dally. He is so sweet, shy and funny. I think this is what true love is supposed to feel like. Maybe its ment to be. Maybe he will ask me out! I wish I could ask him out but I cant talk to him. My brain wont let me. How the fuck am I supposed to live if I cant talk to cute boys... How will I go through my teen years not talking to hotties. I hate my mutism.

I feel so bad for Twiela, Marco & Dally they are all in "mr.Katshit's class" lol or atleast thats what Twiela calls it. apperently that teacher is the worst but really its a teacher he cant be as bad as Twiela says.

wft?! where is Twiela?!? she wasnt at school for the past 2 weeks she never misses school! Maybe I should go over to her house to see whats wrong.

Twiela moved schools! atleast she didnt move houses, but still... how the fuck am I supposed to go through school now. My best friend/school role model is gone from my school. she says we will keep in toutch but... i doubt it. once people move schools they dont remember thier old friends.

~~Grade 5~~

At the beggining of the year Dally finally asked me out. just as I hoped he would, and I said yes! :)

"Dally I love you!"

"I love you too Mackenzie!"

seemed to be our favourite convo. lol the cupcake faze, but it didnt last...

~~Grade 6~~

My 'Friends' keep gossiping! It is getting so anoying... I have to do something. they have to stop before someone gets hurt... but how can I stop them from fighting and gossiping if I cant talk?!?

one day I just got somad from what I over heard them gossiping about that I talked, but not to them to Dally. Well actualy I didnt 'talk' I screamed! I was so pissed! That stupid man whore! I wanted to punch him! I must have screamed at him for atleast five minutes, but then I stopped because he kissed me & said "Mackie, im so sorry but you need to shut up, so that I can say something. Im breaking up with you."

"Dally, your kidding me right?!?"

"No Mackie, im serious. were through." he said as he turned and walked away.

I was Depresserd for weeks after that, and somehow he managed to turn all my friends against me. I lost them... I lost all my friends. They all hated me. All because of him gossiping. My depression is so bad that my wrists are scared. Yea you read that right. I cut. I dragged the razor across my pail wrist. Multipul times. My arms look like a fucking psyco cat attacked me, but only hurt my wrists. All because of them.

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