It's Complicated

Part Three

P H I L

I hung up the phone, grinning at Dan. "He said it was okay," I told him, standing up. I grabbed Dan's hand, smiling up at him. "Let's go, shall we?"

He giggled, shaking his head lovingly at me. "We shall."

So Dan and I walked through the airport, hand-in-hand.

It felt good to finally be able to do couples things in public with Dan. Hold his hand, kiss his cheek. It was relieving that our fans fully accepted us.

But at the same time I deeply regretted coming out. What if Dan and I didn't work out? What if we broke up? How would we tell our fans?

Did I even love Dan anymore?

Of course you do, I tried to tell myself. Your in love with him and you always will be.

I didn't believe what I was telling myself. I had loved Dan at one point, I really had – but we just weren't meant to last.

Obviously, I would never announce these thoughts aloud to anyone. Especially not Dan.

Dan, who still told me he loved me every night as we were getting into bed. Dan, whose voice was full of sincerity as he said those three little words to me.

"Phil?" his voice snapped me out of my thoughts. "Phil, they're calling our flight."

"Hm?" I said distractedly. "Oh, yeah."

I let go of Dan's hand, grabbed my suitcase, and walked through security and onto the plane.

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As we were getting settled into our seats, Dan placed his hand on top of mine. I was startled by his sudden movement, quickly looking over at him. He smiled at me, his eyes crinkling in the corners.

He moved his hand, covering his mouth as he yawned, and I giggled at him. Dan just shook his head before laying it on my shoulder.

"Good night, Phil," he said with a small giggle. "I love you. Lots."

"I love you, too," I lied to him.

Then I fell asleep with Dan's head on my shoulder. I dreamt of a life where I didn't have to lie to Dan for the sake of his own happiness.

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just a little filler chapter :)

I am soooooo sorry that this is so short after such a long wait! it turns out that having two authors on one story is actually very confusing at times :) also, thank you so much to anyone who has read this story!

love,

Jolie <3

p.s. I may have teared up a bit while writing this chapter... oopsies.