I'm not the one who wants to hurt you Billdip fanfic. [BOOK 1]

Chapter 3

Dipper's p.o.v

It's dark, it must be night. I looked around to see if anyone was there. As always, no one was here. I began walking towards don't really knowing where I was going. It seemed like an eternity before I saw Mabel. She sickly smiled at me as she held a knife in her hands. "Oh well, isn't there my twin brother?" She said as she approached me. I couldn't move. She kept walking. "Don't look at me with those eyes Dipper." She said as she traced the tip of the knife on my cheek, making it bleed. "Why are you doing this?" I said as a small tear ran down my face. "You're asking me this? I thought you would have known that" she said as she began laughing like a maniac. "Stop you freak you ain't my sister!" I screamed while silent tears ran down my face. "Me? A freak? Who are you kidding you're the freak here" she said as everything went black. I knew she was telling the truth.
I woke up all sweaty and my cheeks were wet. I guess I cried. My breathing was shaky and irregular. My heartbeat was fast and loud. I looked at my clock and it was 3:30 in the morning. I got out of bed and went to take a shower. When I got out, it was already 4:15. I got dressed and went downstairs. I made myself a bowl of cereal as I went outside. The sun was rising and the wind was blowing in my face. This moment was soon interrupted by a voice in my head. 'You're a freak, a monster, an abomination' the voice chanted. I shook my head. "I'm so tired of you" I whispered to myself as I looked through my pocket and took the bottle of pills. I contemplated the bottle for a couple of minutes. I finally decided to take 2 and swallowed them. I put it back in my pocket as I began walking in the woods. I always liked it. Early in the morning, with no one there, alone, letting my paranoia go for a couple of instants. Forgetting about me, my problems, my pathetic life. I sigh. As I began walking, I heard some branches crack. I turned around only to see a squirrel picking up a nut. I ran my hand trough my hair as I sat by the river. The same spot as yesterday. I began thinking like I always do. 'Am I really a freak?' I asked to myself as I could hear my sister's voice in my nightmare. 'Me a freak? Who are you kidding you're the freak here' 'maybe she's right after all' I thought to myself. 'Of course she's right, did you think that you could be considered as normal? After all happened to you? Pff hahaha you're dreaming' a voice chanted as usual. These meds only kick in after an hour or so. I kept thinking until I finally decided to take a look at my watch. Damn, it was 7. 'I guess I lost track of time.' I mentally said. I got up and began walking back in town. It's only after 10 minutes that I realized I was hungry. I had my wallet so I decided I should go order food at the dinner. As I walked, I saw Wendy and Robbie passing by, they both waved at me. I didn't do anything. I didn't feel like it. Anyways, when I arrived at the dinner, guess who I saw? William Phecir. He was casually reading the journal. 'Since he let me sit with him yesterday, I think it's okay to go sit with him again right?' I thought to myself. 'Like if he would like the company of a freak' a voice murmured in my head as it soon vanished, letting the medicine win over. I didn't realize that I was still up and it's been five minutes since I came in and there's like, nobody in there. I only realized when someone familiar came beside me and hugged me from behind."Hey Dip" the voice said and I automatically recognize who it was. It was Will. In the first time for awhile, I felt loved and not being invisible. "Oh hey" I said calmly as I placed my hand of his arm without noticing it. "Wanna sit with me?" He asked as he let go of me. "Only if it doesn't bother you" I said while smiling like and idiot. "You won't bother me in the slightest. I enjoy your company." He said as he dragged me over the table he was sitting. "Today my treat" I said as I looked through the menu. "I know I told you next time buuut... I'm gonna pay" he said smirking. I face palmed. "Hahaha come on it's my way to show you that I really appreciate you and the only thing you do is face palming?" He asked as he laughed. "Well, I was going forward to pay this time so I can show you how thankful I am from yesterday you idiot" I said as I crossed my arms. He just laughed more. "Oh well sorry for killing your joy but you can't pay anything without a wallet" he said as he took MY WALLET out of his pocket. "What?! How did you get to my wallet?!" I asked with astonishment is my voice. He chuckled. "I kinda grabbed if from your pocket when I gave you a hug, but I was planning to do this joke to give it back to you and laughing my ass off" he said as he handed it back to me and laughed. "Will it's only-" I looked at my watch. "7:30 in the morning and your already stealing stuff from people" I said as I grabbed the bridge of my nose. I feel like I know him from somewhere but I can't remember exactly. "So what? I didn't steal it since I gave it back to you right?" He asked as he looked at his nails. "Technically you're right but- fuck please stop acting like a bitch" I said as I saw him looking at his nails. "Correction: YOUR BITCH" he said as he laughed harder this time. I couldn't help but blush a bit. "William please you're an annoying shit" I said as I groaned. "Who cares? After all your my friend. That's what friends are supposed to do." He said smiling at me. My jaw dropped. He thought of me as his friend. I actually have a friend who considers me as their friend too..."uh dip did I say something wrong?" He asked with doubtful eyes. I just smiled. Not a fake one, but a genuine one. "No you didn't. You're my friend too..." I quietly said as he got up and went by my side. "Thank you for the confirmation" he said as he punched my arm playfully. I laughed. "Like if YOU needed one" I said as he laughed along with me. "Touché" he said as someone came so we could order. We both took eggs and bacon with bred and a coffee. We talked awhile while eating out food. We talked about our likes and dislikes. And other things like that but we never talked about our families. Strange but it's something that we don't particularly like to talk about. Anyways, we ate and I paid this time even if he insisted. After that we went to take a walk through the woods. I don't know if I should trust him right away thought, he's maybe just using me to I don't know what, gotta keep some things to myself. I said to myself. 'Let time see if he's good or bad'

Bill's p.o.v

I kept thinking about how pine tree was different. Every time I was reading his mind, I could sense someone else in his head. No. Not people but voices, the kind of voices that can make you think anything. Oh no don't tell me he's schizophrenic. Damn, never thought this kid could have this problem. But anyways, there's something else too. I can sense it. Anyway I woke up not to long ago and right now it's 6:45 in the morning. I took a shower and did my usual routine. I decided to go eat at the dinner for breakfast. As I walked I kept thinking. 'How did Pine tree get this? What's going on with him?' I mentally asked. I kept replaying these questions in my head as I arrived at the dinner. After like 5 minutes, Pine tree came in. I could feel him staring at me but he wasn't moving for a couple of minutes. I came beside him and hugged him from the back. It's only then that he came back in touch with reality. "Hey dip" I said. "Oh hey" he said. I heard him thought that he was happy but I didn't catch it all. "Wanna sit with me?" I asked as I stopped the hug. He's freaking comfortable. "Only if it doesn't bother you" He said as he had a smile on his face. I felt myself melt from the inside. He has such a beautiful smile. "You won't bother me in the slightest. I enjoy your company." I said and he didn't have time to react that I dragged him over my table. "Today my treat" he spoke up through the menu. That kid... "I know I told you next time buuut... I'm gonna pay" I said smirking as he face palmed. "Hahaha come on it's my way to show you that I really appreciate you and the only thing you do is face palming?" I asked while laughing, I couldn't help myself, it was way to funny. "Well, I was going forward to pay this time so I can show you how thankful I am from yesterday you idiot" he said as he crossed his arms like a child, even tho I know he's still one. "Oh well sorry for killing your joy but you can't pay anything without a wallet" I said as I got out of my pocket his wallet. I couldn't help but laugh, when I came and gave him a hug, I kinda took his wallet from his pocket to play this trick. Actually I more of  snapped my fingers and had it my own pocket. "What?! How did you get to my wallet?!" He asked as I just chuckled. "I kinda grabbed if from your pocket when I gave you a hug, but I was planning to do this joke to give it back to you and laughing my ass off" I said as I handed him back his wallet and laughed again. "Will it's only-" he looked at his watch. "7:30 in the morning and your already stealing stuff from people" He said as he grabbed the bridge of his nose. He was so cute frustrated but this ain't the time to do so.. "So what? I didn't steal it since I gave it back to you right?" I asked as I looked at my nails. "Technically you're right but- fuck please stop acting like a bitch" he said as he saw me looking at my nails. I responded with "Correction: YOUR BITCH" and laughed. "William please you're an annoying shit" he said as he groaned. "Who cares? After all your my friend. That's what friends are supposed to do." I said smiling to him. He was one of the first person that I could actually call my friend. When I said that, his jaw dropped. He thought about how happy he was that I just called him my friend. And he considers me as his friend too! But I didn't want to be suspicious so I said "uh dip did I say something wrong?" He just smiled. Not a fake one, but a genuine one. "No you didn't. You're my friend too..." He said quietly said as I went beside him. "Thank you for the confirmation" I said and punched his arm playfully. He laughed. "Like if YOU needed one" He said as I laughed along with him. This kid was smart."Touché" I said as we ordered food.. We both took eggs and bacon with bred and a coffee. We talked awhile while eating out food. We talked about our likes and dislikes. And other things like that but we never talked about our families. Strange but it's something that we don't particularly like to talk about. Anyways, we ate and he paid even when I insisted. After that we went to take a walk through the woods. He don't know if he can trust me and other things like that. I think he also have trust issues. Time to find out.