Walking down this old road
All battered and bruised
To the devils house
For a little more scarring
My eyes set on the horizon
Still fixed just out of view
Eyes red
Lungs out of breath
Body in pain
Shall I put myself to rest
I have to fight
If I want to leave
But I can't
The doors are locked
I scream for help
But no one hears me
HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
Inside the devils house
All I want is escape
The red queen wants her own way
Or it's off with your head
I'm dying
But I look happy
Make up
Covers all bruises
Look inside do you see
A little girl crying for solace
And peace
Always dreaming of place where I could hide
Live my life inside this place
So in reality I wouldn't have to confide
Non-conformist
I push past normal
Because it was normal that started this hell
I was never normal
My parents knew this well
Forced it upon me
What I'll never be
I'm broken in pieces
The first chunk broke off at three
Couldn't learn my abc's
Or count 123
So I was punnished
My Family joined them
I was the discarded one
The hated one
That seed hatred
Grew up in me
I cry
I scream
And now
I'n insane
Psychotic
Idiopathic Depression
Relief of tension
Cut myself internally
Just to feel safe
Crying into the arms of friends
Wishing for better days
Away from home away from my troubles
Free my soul
Shut up
And free my mind
No more will I hear
Of how incapable I am
Want to help people
But I'm too broken to do so
I try my best and solve others problems
Best advice giver
But can't give my own
Make a lot of friends
Just to loose all but one
My world is crumbling down
I'm screeching
Halting the tires
Got to pick myself up
Inside the devils house
There's hell to pay
Walk with my head down
What confidence can I have
If no one is lifting me up
Can't give myself what I don't have
Love
It's all i have
So I gave it up
Just so it could be thrown away
Break my heart
All I have is my words
Pages of my pain
My tears
My laughter
and my smiles
But I will still stay strong
Even though I'm weak
Because you can't walk into paradise
Unhappy
