Random Write-Ups

Looking Up

Looking up I see

   a brand new world without thee

   a brand new day without glee

   a brand new suffering for me.

Looking up I feel

   that you already have gone in for the kill

   that you left me a gap that is  impossible to fill

   that you hurt me so much to the point I fall and kneel.

Looking up I remember

   the times that I myself treasured

   the moments that for me, had shined bright and seemed like amber

   the feeling that made me wish that I was better.

Now you know

   that in looking up I see

   that in looking up I feel

   that in looking up I remember.

I have been nothing but good to you

   but you have been someone that did nothing but stab me through

   but you have been someone that made me do every single thing for you

   but you have been someone that left me for dead and stomped me with your shoe.

Yet I still don't know why

   why I still keep on rooting for you

   why I still keep on saying to myself that my happiness is you

   why I still keep on hoping that you'll love me too.

In that small span of time I realized

   that I had thought of things that I shouldn't have

   that I am so close to finally giving up

   that I thought of all of this by just looking up.