Forever and Always

Chapter 4

"I'm tired of you being gone for months on end and I'm stuck here alone wondering when I'll get a call or even a text from you. And when you are here, you're in the studio or doing an interview or writing, and I hardly get to be with you."

"Are.. Are you ... Breaking up with me?" I choke out.

"Yes Ghost, I'm sorry. I'll keep Lucifer until you get back and you can pick him up, but after that I would rather not see you anymore. I love you, but I don't love your life style."

"Okay, if this is what you want I'm not going to force myself on you," I say quietly.

"Thank you for understanding Dev." And at that she hangs up on me.

I slowly put my phone in my pocket as I feel the tears coming, I sit on the ground and pull my knees up to my chest and start sobbing. I sit there for a few minutes then I hear the bus door open and close, so I jump up and try my best to pull myself together. When I turn around to face the bus I see Ricky walking towards me.

"Are you alright Ghost?"He asks softly "You've been out here for a while."

"Yeah, I'm fine," I say and paint on a smile.

He rolls his eyes "Don't bullshit me I can see the tears on your cheeks. What's wrong?"

"Um... Kylie... Broke up with me." I whisper and feel tears start falling as I say this words.

He looks at me sympathetically "Aw Ghost I'm sorry," he says as he pulls me into a hug.

I hug him back and lean down resting my head on his shoulder and start sobbing.

He gently stroked my hair "Hey, it's gonna be okay Devin," he said softly.

"I-I w-was a gonna... Propose th-though," I sob out.

He doesn't say anything in response, and he doesn't need to. He just holds me tighter and let's me cry on him. After a few minutes my crying slowed down and i wasn't sobbing anymore.

"Are you ready to go in now?" Ricky asks me gently.

I stand up and nod, "Yeah, we should probably go in before the guys start worrying."

Ricky reaches up and wipes my tears away, "It really will be okay Dev, I promise."

I smile sadly,"Thanks Ricky."

"Anytime," and at that we head towards the bus and he walks in first and heads towards his bunk, and I follow.

"Would it be alright if I hung out in there with you?" I ask after he's in his bunk.

"Of course," he says and makes room for me.

"Thanks," I say as I climb in with him and close the curtain. Ricky and I sat in a comfortable silence for a few minutes scrolling through our phones. I was looking at pictures of me and Kylie together and let out an involuntary sigh.

"You good?" Ricky asks.

"Yeah."

He gives me a skeptical look but thankfully drops the subject, sensing I didn't want to talk about it.

"Ricky, Ghost, we're gonna go out and eat, wanna come?" Ryan calls from the front of the bus

Ricky gives me a questioning look and I shake my head no.

"No we'll hang here, thanks though," Ricky calls back

"You sure?" Vinny asks

"Yeah, we aren't hungry."

"Suit yourselves," Chris calls back and we hear them leave.

Ricky looks over at me, " Wanna watch a movie or something?"

I nod, "Yeah, do you have Ouija?"

He smiles "Yeah."

He pulls his out his laptop and puts the movie in. Once the movie is playing he puts the laptop at the foot of the bunk then sits next to me with his chin resting on his knees, and I can't help but admire how adorable he looks. I know I Kylie just broke up with me, but I've been attracted to Ricky for a while now. As the movie goes on I occasionally glance at him from the corner of my eye, and at one point I realize he's fallen asleep. As I'm watching the movie Ricky leans over onto me in his sleep and I wrap my arm around him so it doesn't fall asleep. When the movie is over I gently shake Ricky awake.

"Ricky, wake up," I whisper in his ear.

I watch as his eyes flutter open then he looks up at me, "Damn I can't even stay awake for a movie anymore," he says as he laughs sleepily.

I laugh softly, " It's pretty late, but are you hungry? We could go out to eat."

He thinks for a moment, "Yeah I could go for some food, what do you want to get?"

"Well, there's a Pizza Hut across the street, wanna go there?"

"Yeah that sounds good."

Once we get our shoes on we head through the lounge and tell the guys where we're going on our way out. Once we get in and order our food we laugh, talk about random shit, and just enjoy each other's company. This is exactly what I needed to forget about Kylie.