Before I start this chapter I just wanna say.........................................................I LOVE YOU MONAEE *Ps.Dont be upset or mad about anything that happens in this chapter or future chapters BECAUSE.............................ITS FOR THE BEST!!!!!!!!*
Haven:Monaee calm down!!!!
Monaee:NO THEY KILLED HIM THEY KILLED MY BIG BROTHER
Haven:*Rocking Monaee back and forth* I know baby I know but its gonna be okay
Monaee:NO ITS NOT THEY KILLED HIM FOR NO REASON
Haven:Baby ever thing happens for a reason it was his time to go
Monaee:WHY WHY THAT WAS MY BIG BROTHER HE WAS MINE AND THEY TOOK HIM FROM ME!!!!!!
Haven:Baby calm down he will be yours again someday but calm down dont forget about the baby you are carrying stop crying its gonna get better
Monaee:*Crys harder* I JUST WANT MY BROTHER!!!!!!!!!! WHY WHO KILLS SOME ONE BECAUSE THEY GOT INTO A FIGHT
Haven:Baby thats how it is in jail they will kill you for no reason espically if you wont be their little bitch
The Kids minus Haven Jr:Is mommy okay??
Haven:Yeah boys go back upstairs mommy gonna be okay
The kids:*All kiss monaee on the cheek and hug her* Its okay mommy *Goes back upstairs*
Haven:You see that if you wont stop crying for yourself stop crying for all 5 of our boys because they need you to be strong for them
Monaee:*Wipe tears and stands up* Haven just leave me alone for now I need time to myself
Haven:No im not doing that
Monaee:Im not going any where and if you wanna check on me I'll be in the guest room
Haven:Okay Stay Strong I love you
Monaee:I love you too *Goes to the boys play room*
IN THE BOYS PLAYROOM
Monaee:Boys come here
Boys:Yes mommy
Monaee:You know mommy loves you right
Boys:Yes
Monaee:And you know I never wanna do anything to hurt you right
Boys:Yes
Monaee:Do you guys love mommy
Boys:Yes
Monaee:Well Mommy is gonna be taking a long vacation and you guys wont see me for a while but I want you to help daddy with your baby brother and I want you guys to be good for daddy can yall do that for mommy
Boys:Yes we big boys
Monaee:Okay well mommy will see yall soon give mommy a kiss
Boys:*Kisses monaee and gives her a hug*
Jakeem:Mommy where are you going
Monaee:Im going with Uncle Jonathan
Jakeem:Okay
Monaee:*Leaves and goes into the guest bathroom*
IN THE GUEST BATHROOM
Monaee:*Writing letter while crying*
LETTER:Dear Haven,
I love you and our boys with everything in me but I cant live without my brother he has always been there for me and im not ready to let him go so Im going where he is because I need him and I know your probably upset about what im doing but I have to Im sorry but me and our unborn child will be fine in heaven and when its your time we will see you than I love you and take care of our boys I bet they gonna grow to be wonderful loving men and make sure they never forget me and I hope you can forgive me in the future for what I have dont but its for the best if you find me before its to late dont call and Ambulance just let me go its for the best
