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Chapter 12

I found it in myself to turn around and get in my car.

I began to drive off to my soon to be old apartment, while trying not to look back.

This was a mistake.

Ky POV
*Next Day*

I cried myself to sleep last night to my mom.

She used to be in and out of my life but after she got out of rehab for the sixth time, she's finally clean.

We finally are able to communicate the way we were always supposed to now... So when I need her for serious things like this.

She's there.

So I drove to her house in Compton and broke... the fuck... down.

I don't think I've ever become so real with the term 'I lost her' like the way I did last night.

My mother knows exactly what causes my feelings towards women because of how I was treated when I was younger.

My mother gave me the benefit of the doubt but didn't at the same time.. She told me that I shouldn't have been playing around with her daughter-in-law in the first place and just been official with her from the jump.

I feel like my mother doesn't see certain sides of things but I know she doesn't mean any harm... Anymore.

She loves Alisha like her own daughter and hates Monè like her own enemy.

The thought made me close my eyes stressfully for a split second.

... When I say Alisha left, I meant she left my life because she did. She left in many more ways than just one... AND ontop of that, she was moving thousands of miles away...

Ughhh.

I drove myself back home today even though I was paranoid to be driving again, I sat at home after physical therapy and thought of a way that I would be able to see her.

I needed to see her again.

I called Carter and he said I could go pick up a box of antiques that Alisha was gonna have to drop off. He suggested that I go get it so I could see her again.

Perfect.

I thanked him and hung up.

I called Alisha and my heart started bouncing around when she answered. I told her why I needed to get the box and she thanked me for saving her the trip.

She said she was gonna be leaving as soon as I got it though. I was sad about that but this was my last opportunity.

I needed to try to subliminally tell her that I still wanted her.

I pulled up and got out. I struggled for a minute and grabbed my crutches. I noticed a big U-Haul outside infront of her apartment.

I stared at it for a minute before I took a deep breath to prepare myself as I headed towards the front door.

I knocked on the door and it was so different to be here again... I still felt very 'at home' like I always did though.

Seconds later, the door opened and I grinned at the sight of Alisha.

She laughed at how big I was smiling and gave me a hug.

I wanted that hug to last forever but it was even MORE short because she had to leave quickly.

She had her purse in her hand and the box one the floor next to her.

I looked at her for a second.