Imaginary Friend ~ Phan (ON HOLD)

~~Tree .3. ~~

The next few days, everything set in.

Ella was gone. I could see that everything of hers was gone, and that was just in my room. Her clothes, and books, and make up was all gone, cleaned up. She had came over one day while I was gone at work, taking her stuff and leaving only a little note.

'Dear Phil,' It read, 'I know what you saw at the party, and I'm truly sorry. I just felt that we weren't working out as well as we use to. I felt that you didn't love me anymore. So I did something stupid, and ruined what could have possibly been fixed. I know I've done bad things, and I'm so so so sorry, but I managed to fix those somehow, but this I feel like I can't fix. So I feel like it is in both of our best interest if we separate. I don't want to hurt you anymore than I already have.
Sincerely, Ella.
P.S. Before I forget, I meant to tell you that I got a job in America, so I'm moving anyway.'

I couldn't believe anything that had happened in those few day. One day, I had a happy life with my girlfriend that I planned on proposing to, and the next she cheated on me, moved to America and took everything with her.

There was only one thing she did leave behind. A little red panda that could fit into your hand. She never really cared about it, but I loved the thing and gave it to her for a birthday gift. I remember the excitement that had drained from her face when she saw it, and it was replaced with disgust. She mostly kept it in the closet. Out of sight and out of mind. The panda was sitting down on the breakfast bar, with its tail laid out and it's ears perked up. It sat right next to the note that had destroyed me. I slowly grabbed it slowly, and carefully held it close to my chest. It smelled like mothballs and dust. Slowly, everything started to become dark, and hot tears began to stream down the side of my check. Why did she have to leave like that? Why did she even have to leave? We did have a few fights, but we got through them, just like any other couple.

I really shouldn't have been spending too much time thinking about it. It was simple. She didn't love me as much as I loved her, and that was that. But I did, and every single detail kept bugging me to the edge of tears. This wasn't how things were suppose to be, but at the same time the were. Her leaving was just simply what was meant to happen, and I couldn't do anything about it. I was completely helpless. I had no one anymore.

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It took me a few days to get adjusted back to work at the library. I had called Mari, my boss, and told her I wouldn't be in for a few days. Me and Mari had a good relationship, we had always been close friends.

"Yeah," she told me "I'll just get David to come in."

I fell into a state of dullness. Everything around me just blurred together into a never ending loop. At that point I didn't think of the time going past as night and day, it was just, time. Wasted time.

Time that Ella had without me.

Time that she was spending in some country across the lake probably with someone who didn't know about who she was over here.

I loathed that man.

He would be put on with the cute and innocent girl act that I never seemed to catch on to. Maybe he would be smarter, maybe he would realize how much of a cheat she was.
Anyway, I had basically sulked in my flat for a week, at least. Until Louise came over and banged on my door.

"You need to get out of here. It smells like old pizza and pubescent males."

I rolled my eyes, not wanting to leave my pit of self loath. "Sorry, I'm feeling sleepy." I rolled back into a blanket on the couch.

"Well, then I'll just make you get up."

She started pulling on the blankets and folding them up, and took the one from around me. I just kept my head buried in the couch cushion. I heard her move into the kitchen then, taking out a trash bag and throwing stuff away. She did this, cleaned my flat, got an hour. Then, she did the mum thing and started vacuuming. Eventually, I couldn't take it and went to get a shower. Afterwards I changed into some clean clothes. A pair of jean shorts and a Totoro t-shirt. Ella never like anime or cartoons that much, but I loved them.

When I came out, Louise looked quiet proud at the fact that my flat was clean. "I did a pretty good job. Never seen it cleaner." She grinned cheekily.

I felt my eyes roll to the back of my skull and went to sit on the couch next to her.

She put her hand on my shoulder. "You gonna be okay?" I just shrugged.

She just sighed and grabbed the remote for the tellie. The Great British Bake Off was on. We watched that for about three hours, until both of our phones vibrated. Louise checked hers, I just really didn't care.

"Alfie and Zoe are having a party tonight, a few other friend are going."

"Who?"

"Felix, Marzia, Troye, Joe, Carrie, Tyler, Ian and Anthony. And of course Alfie and Zoe." She said, basically naming off our friend in the group chat except for her. "We should go, you more than me."

Louise had never been one for parties, and I hadn't honestly either, but her encouraging me to go really put thing into perspective. "Why? It's just a bunch of people getting drunk and making out." I've already had enough of that for a while.

She rolled her eyes and sighed. "Cmon Philly, this'll be a chance to meet new people, to get over her. Just put your self out there. You may not want to date right now, and that's understandable, but noes the time where you need friends to help you though this."

I had friends.

"I do have friends." I hissed, trying to keep my eyes on the tellie instead of her. "I have you, Carrie, Tyler..."

Instead of coming back at me with a comeback, she just sighed and got off the couch.

I heard her keys jingle and her footsteps move though the kitchen.

I didn't want her to leave, but at the same time, I didn't want to be nagged to get out and socialize with people.

"All I'm saying Phil, is that you deserve to be happy with or without Ella." Louise stood at the doorway between the kitchen and living room. "She shouldn't be the one to decide that."

I sighed and got off the couch.

I gave her a long hug before she walked out the doorway. "Thanks Lou."

"No problem Philly, if your going tonight text me." She winked and shut the door before leaving my flat.