2.16.16 Tuesday

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I was born a female,I'm gonna turn 13 soon, and.....

I'm gender fluid and bisexual

My bisexual story
When I was 11 I noticed that I was starting to develop feelings for girls. I knew I wasn't lesbian bc I still liked guys but I also knew I wasn't straight bc I liked girls to. So I realized I was bisexual.

My gender fluid story
When I turned 12 I started feeling different about myself. Some days I felt like a girl but others I felt like I was a boy. Others I would feel like a mixture of both or none. Some days I would feel more masculine and felt like a boy, so I would dress up, act, talk like a boy and since I have long hair I would hide all of it so I can give myself the satisfaction of feeling like a boy. On those days I would identify as a boy. But other days I would feel more feminine so I would do things that made me feel like a girl.(and identify as a girl) Other days I felt like both genders and other days I didn't identify as any. I was confused about what this meant, I was confused about myself. I questioned myself. For a while I considered myself non-gender because I couldn't identify or "decide" on a gender for me, but that just didn't feel or seem right. I knew I wasn't non-gender but I couldn't find the word for how I felt.

And then one day I was on Instagram on an account that was part of the lgbt community. I clicked on a photo that described this girl who sometimes feels and identified herself as a boy, other times identifies herself as a girl and others like both. Then there was this one of a boy who identified himself as a girl sometimes, felt like a boy sometimes and others felt like none. Then at the bottom of the picture it said gender fluid. I realized that what I felt was called gender fluid. It described exactly how I felt, but to make sure that was the word for it, I searched the definition gender fluid and it was the word. I was so relieved!! I was like yessss!! There's a word for it!! I finally understood myself

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