Broken Generation (Sequel to Don't Go)

Chapter 12

During this month Evan encouraged me to go more often. At the beginning I was too skeptical to even acknowledge that idea. I mean, it's London. We all live in the same city. What the fuck am I supposed to do if the dead girl suddenly bumps into them? First of all I would cause them a heart attack. Also, I think it's better off this way. Them thinking I'm dead. They are all better off without me. They can live their normal lives without worrying about me.

I got up from my bed and shuffled my way to the bathroom locking it behind me. I stripped down to look at the monster I have created. Cuts everywhere. Cuts of all different lengths decorating my body. Some of them were still very red and fresh while others were slowly healing and fading away. I looked over at my blade and took it.

"Do it, it's what you need. You wish nothing to see the little bubbles of blood appear." My head spoke out. I slowly nodded like I was hypnotized. I took one more glance at the shiny metallic blade that was delicately in my hand. One more glance before it would be stained once again with Crimson red. I moved my hand and gently placed the blade on the skin. In one swift move there it went. Another perfect line marking my body. In a matter of a second two little bubbles of that Scarlet were finally escaping my body. Soon enough the blood started to drip. I continued and moved fast. After about 10 more lines I dropped the blade.

A sick smile was plastered on my face. Look at all that blood, that beautiful ink that flows through our body. It's finally free, it's not locked in my body anymore. I had made a masterpiece. I rest my head on the cool bathroom wall and I welcomed with pleasure the numbness. There went all of my misery, pain, anger; all gone. All replaced with nothingness. I enjoyed that beautiful feeling for a bit.

I moved forward and decided to just jump into the shower. I turned the handle and warm water was falling. All the blood was started to go away while it was decorating the shower floor with a bright red. After a minute the water returned clear and so had all my feelings. I stood there doing nothing for about 10 minutes and then finally decided to clean myself.

After the shower was done, I dried my hair and got dressed. I looked at the time; 4:23 PM. Not bad, I have done worse. I decided to actually leave my cave and made my way to the kitchen. Evan was sipping his water and smiled as soon as he saw me.

"Good afternoon" He said.

"Same to you" I said placing myself on the chair.

"We have a lot to do. I have a surprise for you that we have to leave as soon as possible and we are going out tonight so you better get ready my princess. No excuses this time. I'm taking you some place nice and I know you will enjoy it." He said and he put his now empty glass in the sink.

"Well, let me just fix my face and we can go. I'm trusting you on this one Evan. You know me so it better me good." I said and got back up making my way, once again, to my little dark cave. I entered the bathroom and fix my hair making small curls on the ends. I put on concelear so it would hard the dark purple circles under my dead and empty eyes. I put on some eyeliner, mascara and a thin layer of red lipstick. Once I was somewhat okay with my appearance and myself was again visible in the kitchen.

"Ready to go?" He asked as he was already making his way to the front door. I nodded even know he couldn't see me. I was right behind him and I sat down in the passenger's seat.

"Evan we are we going?" I asked him curious knowing what he had planned out for me.

"Oh don't worry. You will enjoy it" He said and for a second I could swear I saw him blink. I turned on the radio and "The Devil In I" by Slipknot was playing. I smiled and raised the volume of the radio. Throughout the next few songs there were occasional headbands and singalong from the both of us. After the third song finished they interrupted the cycle of music and there was a person talking.