The Capture Is Back

Chapter. 2 "Reading between the lines."

" Justin this isn't your fault so don't give me that look, this could've happened to anybody."
I let out a breath after as he lifted me into his arms bridal style and gives me his shirt to wrap around tight around the biggest wound.

"Madison I don't want to hear it.. what if I didn't hear anything and that person killed you... I would feel guilty everyday of my life... I cant lose you again."
in that moment I swear I heard his voice crack... remembering that night I almost died... just the thought of it brought my mood down significantly even though I was a literal bloody mess right now. I was going to reply but I bit my tongue and let the quietness consume me, I rested my head on his chest as he ran swiftly out the front door and gently placed me down in the back seat with Gavin, telling him to try and pry the shard out of my leg before it does serious damage. Before I could say anything Justin slams the door shut and gets in the drivers seat and speeds off to the hospital and calling everyone in his group to be looking into who could have been in the house this night.

" Gavin I swear to god if you even think abo-"
I couldn't finish, David reached back and put a cloth in my mouth to prevent my screams to be heard as Gavin takes off Justin's shirt wrapped around my thigh and takes a wide look at the large glass piece jabbed in my thigh.. he gulps and without even a second he starts pulling. I scream and bite down on the cloth put in my mouth as tears spill from the corners of my eyes. I stare at the ceiling just praying it will be over soon then he tugs again... and again..

"Dude its too deep, if I pull it out, we don't have enough wraps with us to contain the blood."
Gavin says trying to reason with Justin to just wait till we get to the hospital which was probably fifteen minutes away by now. I looked over to Justin seeing his eyes meet mine through the dash mirror.

"If we don't get it out now it will swell and her leg is going to get infected, we need it out now, David give him your shirt as another rag."
Justin demands firmly and they begin to listen all over again like a puppy to its owner.

the pain hurts so much, I glance down at the wound now purple and blue all around the glass and swelled with water trying to push the shard out itself. I groan as I lift my shaky hand to touch the glass and try and rip it out myself, in my field this would be nothing, we get shot at, knives thrown, we disarm heavy artillery, I need to suck it up. With one last tug it comes out, as the blood on it drips down from it, onto my arm and chest.  Gavin quickly ties the shirts around it to cut off any blood spillage. And in an instant we pull up to the hospitals emergency wing, Gavin helps Justin get me out of the car as nurses and doctors come flying out with a wheelchair to help me, they take me to a unit and usher my pants off leaving me in my shirt and underwear, they clean my legs to get rid of any bacteria and start banding up the wounds, as they untie the shirts from my thigh they start barking orders, I'm guessing to stitch it. I'm so deep in my thoughts all I hear is ringing in my ears, my eyes follow to Justin's as he is talking to Gavin and David who are not looking at me to give me privacy. Some nurses handed Justin and David a robe to cover their chest since they had no shirts on. Suddenly I cry in pain as I feel a long needle being plunged into my thigh. Justin runs to my side in an instant and taking my hand trying to calm me down but it doesn't work, I feel the lady dive the needle through me like I am a sewing project.  I bite my lip trying not to scream, drawing blood from the bottom.

What feels like eternity later, the nurses finished stitching the wound and I am sitting up in the hospital bed waiting for the paperwork to be signed off. David sits next to me and from what I can tell the way he is typing away on his phone is he finally has a lady friend! I need to enlighten myself somehow right now as the medication is slowly leaving my body.

"So whos the lucky lady?"
I wink at him in a childish way.

"hey! no eavesdropping! I don't put my personal life out there to others."
he puts on a stone face yet I now he is dying to just tell someone. I sigh and lean back into the bed.

"You know, just because you play a big bad tough guy doesn't mean you have to bottle up any feelings. you aren't a brick."
I mutter crossing my arms getting irritated by all the guys currently in my life have no emotions and no desire to act like a normal human being... does being in a gang seriously just drain them from any attachment to others, any possibility of humor and happiness... my life has been so messed up ever since I was born, well at least until I could understand things. Then I got taken and my life is still complete chaos. Nathan is my only string to home, yet Justin has my heart... even when most wouldn't let him see the light of day.

"Madison... hate to break it to you, but this is the way we are. We cant talk about people we care about.. we shouldn't even have people we care about. because in the end they'll get hurt whether its from us or someone wanting to get back at us.."
his words sad but true. I could see in his eyes the want of a normal life yet it was far too late. I let my eyes wander to Gavin who I must say was the most lively out of all of them, he also was the youngest out of all of them, maybe that had something to do with it. When he gets older will he completely drain like the rest too?

"You chose this life, this life didn't choose you.."
I say more aggressive than I intended to, making him look taken back for a moment. Before he couldn't say anything back I stammered to my feet, feeling the shock course through my leg, but I didn't care. I was mad, furious actually. Maybe it was lack of sleep, maybe it was my whole life, or maybe it was just the way I let my life decide this course.  would I turn into one of them one day? Just a body moving and breathing, not knowing when I will die or the people I love die? I let myself limp out the room door ignoring the guys voices to tell me to sit back down and wait for them. I need air, I need to leave, I need a new life.... but I love Justin too much to go... why did he have to be a criminal... and why did I have to fall for him...

Will I ever get a normal life...